hi...

ahhh! wht an awful night it's been! the day time was somewhat kool... rained... then it became sunny. It was a beautiful sight... to c the yellow sunlight shine across/through my window and onto the wall. I wanted to take a picture of it... but too lazy.
Anywayz, onto the real reason for this post... i cannot emphesize how much i DESPISE this phrase "There was an error contacting the database. Please try again." plz... DARN U Q6! For those who don't know what that is... i dunt haf time to explain, and there's also the part where my explanations are either incorrect or... yah... For msn users that have the "new" beta version, better if u use hotmail, but on the left side of the msn window thingy at the bottom left says Q6 in blue with the 6 subscripted and on the top.... or whtever. yah... i've been trying to get on the webpage for 2 hours, prolly half an hour trying to log in, and another half trying to send the answer. 3 HOURS! don't worry, in that time, i ate dinner, watched tennis, and did my hmwk. AH! i am not looking forward to next week when i have to this again... darn servers busy... darn microsoft... I can't say more or else UU and Drakonen will have nothing to vent about with UU's Microsofts lame excuses... n yah... ok. I'll save the rest of the hatred for the others to express to u, the viewers and readers. bye bye!

"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"

Hoi...

hi hi! yes... another day... don't usually do regular posts anymore but oh well... i'm too lazy to do hmwk. so yah, finally moved my computer bak up in my room... but no point on saying nething since no one came over to c where my computer was during it was downstairs. haha. newayz, tired from moving everything that i moved down b4, bak up. Mostly it's coz i'm SICK! so many ppl i kno r sick now... such a shame. I couldn't sleep last night... darn runny nose. I'd b sleeping and awake randomly. Tried sleeping at 11 30, but was still awake at 12 30, i know this because i taped the tennis match. prolly also woke up around 3 or 4, then slept, woke up again when my aunt and uncle were leaving to go bak to HK at around 6 30. Yes... i don't know why they came bak, but i'll ask eventually. Yah.. i prolly gained a few pounds when they were here, so much food...
not much else to say but i think there's some kind of virus on my computer, haha.
anywayz, g2g, i haf a virus to catch. dum dum dum... it's not funny...

"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"

Back To School... AGAIN...

Grass is green... waking up at 7: 45 sucks... compared to my normal 10:00 wake up for the majority of the break... and sleeping past midnight yesterday didn't help... and sources tell me that m&m isn't able to actually use the *post* button for blogger ( sources meaning him )... unno why but i'm not the expert so...

"What's With Toilet Paper... Why Do THey MaKe It White? Things STand OUT On White..."

very short post... too bad... i need my sleep...

I...

Hoi hoi! whtsup ppl? yay... ppl r posting now... just have to wait for m&m's to post... i think he forgot about us. no posts from him for a LONG time! i'd say that no one misses him, but that would just get him to not post even longer... but can't say we miss him either since it seems like he doesn't miss or remember us!
so yah... march break is over... wednesday, friday, and sunday i coulda went over to UU's house but noooo... so sad... Yah, wednesday was boring, friday i did something in the morning and early afternoon but nothing in the late afternoon, Sunday had something to do in morning and early afternoon but nothing in the late afternoon as well. Monday was the most boring since i was planning to go to UU's house that day but he didn't finish his hmwk... -twitches eyes- so i stayed in the BASEMENT ALL DAY DOING NOTHING!!! yah... i feel the worst for drakonen... since that would b his whole week...
newayz! school continues and i begins with me WAKING UP LATE! it was 8 50 when i woke up again... (woke up b4 coz alarm clock started but went bak to sleep after i turned it off), i didn't get a chance to eat or drink. it was a terrible morning... just... terrible. I had a horrible stomach ache at night, as in it was like the acids were burning through my stomach (not anything else u nasty minded ppl!) horrible... i couldn't even stand up straight coz it was hurting so bad. I'm ok now... but i NEVER want to repeat that pain again.
yah... so i'm done... i have hmwk... but i'll prolly do it after dinner or something... like i alwayz do. so not used to going to school... I also need to cut my own hair again... it's getting annoying.

"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"

t'has come and gone...i was talking about winter!~!!

for me march break was between both S.S and Drakonen's... it wasn't exactly dull... but not exactly fun-filled throughout... it went something like this... sleep, did stuff, more sleep, wakes up and does something else... etc... i doubt march break was actually meant for things to be accomplished... note the name march break meant to say we told you so... when all the final projects worth 359700389457% of your marks all begin right after this... ( i know that number isn't possible ... an advance warning meant to stop people from commenting on it). well at least next week is a 4 day week... which everyone ELSE has... dang nothing to say that would make our break anywhere near better than the one the markham people had as did everyone else who doesn't live here... ya that was a stupid decision on their part... well still got *some* hmwk to do... "homework is also known as homework the day before its due work... so thats all for me... no what's with for today...

Wasted

This entire week was wasted.... and now its over.... (sigh).... I don't know what to say, other than the obvious.... We never got our intended work done. Nothing.... everything from Hapkido to the ours of postponed gaming. Nothing...... I've been so bored that I took the time to make the two pictures of myself. What a waste of my time. I didn't even start the only piece of homework i had which was reading a 10 pages of a novel and answering questions on it. I didn't even look at my ISU work for English. I can't help but be mad at myself. I didn't even get the amount of sleep I wanted, since I started to procrastinate on when i would go to sleep, finally dozing off at around 2am and waking up at 12pm on the same day. Atleast S.S got some time to watch a movie and have fun.... how I envy the fun...... I'll just cry myself to sleep now.... been saying it... never actually did it.... maybe I'll make up the lack of work in school.... I know I will.

'ey....

i just thought up of a kool idea for my titles! i should put the first word of my most recent post as my title! haha! i know it sux... but u dunt haf to critisize me. so yah, yesterday was kinda fun i guess. Went to a good friday service at my church, then went to a buffet with my fellowship and yah... that's about all for yesterday. Today was fun too, i was suppose to get my blood tested... =S but it was closed so i didn't. oh well... was looking forward to get the needle part over with so i dunt hafta think about it for another... 2years? so since it was closed, we went to mall, ate breakfast, walked around, and that's that. afternoon, i went out to fairview to watch ring 2 with a couple of cool and funny ppl. i won't say who coz ppl reading this pass judgement no matter what they say. they'll prolly figure out who it was but at least ppl who don't know me don't know who it is. lol! let alone who i am... so yah, watching the movie was more funny than horrific. now, i'm not talking about THE movie, i'm talking about ME watching the movie. it wouldn't matter wht horror movie it'd b, just as long as those two r there watching too, it's funny. =P hahaha...
yah, after we walked around, found many things that i wanted to buy but couldn't or wouldn't coz it either cost too much or i had second thoughts. found apocolyptica or whtever groups CD, haha, wanted to buy that but needed a second opinion *drakonen*. i also found other cd's but that doesn't concern u ppl. NO IT'S NOT PORN! dirty minded kids... wht has the world become...
newayz, also found dart and dart boards like uu has! haha, also a real dart board and darts which cost the same amount but either way i didn't haf enough money, arg. i also don't haf ne cards no more coz it got wet in the rain during summer when i was at taiwan... nooo! wanted to buy cards also but my budget is LOW! from the spending that took place... the event that drakonen and i will never mention coz it was that bad... poor planning.
anywayz... i'm done here.. I GOTTA DO HMWK! NOOOO! WHT IS THIS? IT'S NOT RITE DOING HMWK DURING MARCH BREAK! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. tdsb... any non-tdsb students get 13 dayz of march break... although not in a row, but it is longer by two dayz because of their weekend. they're trying to trick u into believing that tdsb march break is good... but it really isn't... it really isn't... -shakes head- newayz, gotta whine about doing my hmwk, bye!

"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"

blogging

'ey... so yah... march break. didn't really get as much sleep as intended but oh well, all in good fun. Went to TC for Monday and Tuesday (teens conference... christian thing! =D) so yah, tired from that, but it was fun! n... yah... wednesday stayed home for most of the day, yesterday went to doctors appointment for check-up and went to uu's place to play naruto, pot, and budokai 3! coulda fit 15 more minutes in the beginning but piano teacher was scary...lol. yaw, now it's good friday and i need to sleep coz i hafta go to church tomorrow, bye!

note to self: use super kamahamaha on kid buu to unlock uub and gogeta

sorry for the note, had no way else to remember

"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"

Stuck in 2d.... Current me...

Happy guys.... me after my haircut and wearing my glasses.....

we now return to the regular program...

yar everyone has started to post again ( cept for m&m... unno where HE went... ) well lets see what is there to talk about... well basicly between ss and drakonen... or d? no... drakonen... ( at least 5 letters longer than everyone else...) they covered some of the break... other days have been wasted staying home attempting to do homework + staying home... realized that the march break schedule is stupid... almost 1/3 of the days are limited to home and home due to the closure of everything for easter holiday... smart... can't do these 8 paragraph long posts like drakonen... already the time i started and the time now is like 2 hours...

"What's With "Eat my Dust!"... BasiCly Saying... Look here, I'm DiRTy...

Stuck in 2D

It's been a while since I posted.... I think about two weeks. My excuse... Laziness and procrastination. So I decided to spend time recapping on what's been happening since the last post made Friday. First off.... S.S and I went to visit a "person" that "guilted" S.S into meeting up with her downtown. I decided to go along with S.S It was fun, the "person"was volunteering in a Sports Men trade show and was helping people learn to use a B.B. rifle (we can discuss the ethics of kids learning to use guns on another day). To bad though, turned out that she could have got us into the place for $3 instead of the $8 that we paid. We had also originally wanted to catch a hotdogs stand and heat hot dogs for $1.50, but we couldn't find any and after hours of walking, we just grabbed some pizza that was $1.50 more that in the suburbs.... That's downtown life for yah.

After S.S gave the "person" a so called belated birthday and Christmas present (still argue he has other motives for doing all this), we went to back to Best Buy near our homes to get U.U a PS2 controller. Why, well.... U.U has a modded PS2, and we have two games that we're very fond of that can only be enjoyed with two controllers. U.U had two controllers but left one at another friends house, so we just bought him one. It was worth it, but I still have to explain to my parents how I wasted $30 and didn't bring anything home. S.S lost $25. Thus is my life.... Dragging behind S.S on his adventures of poor spending habits and even worse planning. Learned what not to do down town that day.... (All this was on Saturday)

Now, the next day, Sunday, I went to Pacific Mall early in the morning and dropped $512 on a new digital camera, that's with Tax. It was the best one I could get for that price, and its supposedly better that a lot of more expensive cameras.... (and it really is). After coming home and me and my dad telling my mom that it actually coast $460, (which is true... Since that's about the price before tax). It was nice, except it would take 4.5 hours to charge the batteries, which meant I had to kill time, so off to u house me and S.S went.

So at U.U house, we went down into his basement with the huge TV and the PS2, where we presented the PS2 controller. I ended up ripping the plastic cover off with my own hands instead of waiting for U.U to come with scissors. After that, we loaded up Naruto: Narutimett Hero 2 and for a good 5 hours. After that, U.U's parents managed to get us to stay for dinner since it was getting late. Swiss chalet was good... We stared at each other a lot.... And didn't say much or engage in a long conversation, but the food was good. We even washed our own plates, but I think that might have been considered an insult to U.U's mother.... to late now.

After dinner, we went back down and loaded a Prince of Tennis game and played doubles, loosing every time to the worst people with the best. It's something that we're not very proud of. We we're starting to reach 9:30 when we put Naruto back on for a last time and got a drive home from U.U's dad. They're so nice, I feel bad just coming over to play video games. Maybe we should clean U.U's room for him.

Monday and Tuesday passed by the same way. I experimented with my digital camera in manual mode while I was alone in my empty house with U.U far away and S.S at some conference. No, I didn't take any nasty pictures, just the living room and dining room. I took a picture of myself and made me 2D in Photoshop, it the one at the top of this post. I think its cool, maybe I can do it for the other users here....

So now Wednesday, my entire family is here, and me and S.S are trying to go back to U.U's house for more gaming. Its 12:25 now and I still haven't eaten any breakfast or lunch. I don't have anything else to say but that I'll try and actually post the rest of the days of march break. Oh yeah... We're on March Break... Forgot to mention that.

*The picture ended up looking nothing like me.... so sad.... my mom thought it was S.S at first glance.... my own mother.... so sad... I'm gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.

post7

yar... the blog looked VERY boring since the last blog was done on monday... wow... i didn't wanna post coz i wanted OTHER PPL to post instead of the blog looking like sacrosanct.saint, unknownuser, unknownuser, sacrosanct saint.... so sad.
so yah... MARCH BREAK! yay!.... gonna pass by like it was 2 minutes. went to unknownusers house... played a lot of naruto! lol! we usually kept losing at prince of tennis so yah... it's more fun when u haf 2 controllers which he will soon have... mwahahaz. wht an addictive game...
so tired... and i'm tired of crossing my leg/kneeling on the ground! my computer is on the ground not on the table so i hafta sit down on the floor... for a week now! so good to sit on a chair... -sighz-
can't think of anything rite now so yah, i'll post something up when i think of something. so hungry...

"life isn't hard, you're just lazy"

Giving us tests... yet they tell us to sleep earlier...

down to my last two tests during this testing maddness...

"What's With GreeN Tea... I Unno but isN'T It SuppOsed To Be GreeN?... "

see i would post longer... but... looks at clock... 10:58... looks at time started... 9: 14... and in that time i typed ONE sentence... note: currently cram-studying...

post6

I feel like i'm alone in this blog... well... drakonen would prolly post one LARGE one so that could take a while...
I haf an overwhelming urge to write a novel and publish it! it'd b a major accomplishment! wanted to do that last summer... but went to Hong Kong so didn't get much chance to do planning n stuff. There's major research involved too... arg... and taking world religion for the book i'm about to write would b a great help! but i didn't take it so now i gotta research stuff on my own time. drakonen would prolly b working out at some YMCA so he won't b helping me out much since he'll b alwayz tired n sore from working out. there's alwayz uu and mm to work with... but who'd wanna do work during the summer? nooooooo.... i'm alone... again. lol. that's one of my dreams that i wanna accomplish soon... become a published writer! woooo! prolly gonna take a while... n i'll prolly b seeing a lot of "rejected" on letters... oh well. A novel written by a... 17 year old in Scarborough (expecting it to take a few years... lol). this is just an idea that came bak to me today when working on my careers hmwk... fields of work. wouldn't hurt to make money off of writing books. it just depends how many ppl buy the books, haha.
yah... so if neone wants to help, comment... i guess...but working with ppl on a book would cause a lot of arguements on ideas... so DARN! NVM! just need help on research coz i hate researching... lol. so time consuming and so much reading.
and yes, i make all the quotes myself, unless some famous intellectual person said the same thing I said and has been published online and in books. But what can i say, great minds think alike.

"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"

Drakonen is now a man!

A man has enough problems getting ONE date from a girl... but it has come to my attentions that drakonen, a normal male like all of us ('cept more nerdie) had gotten ONE date... with FIFTEEN GIRLS! now... he may make excuses like "a table mix up" but we all know wht happend. being hit on by 15 girls in one day is not normal. especially when they're all together! newayz, g2g for dinner. bye.

"It's the journey, not the destination"

post5

so yah... yay... it's saturday. get to rest... a lil'. friday was fun eventhough i had to move the computer downstairs by myself. the couch isn't that great to sleep on but it's better than the floor. lol. went to someone's house for guy's night out for my church fellowship. THE GUY IS SOOOOOOOOO RICH! when i say he has a home theater, i MEAN he has a home theater! he has the chairs, the screens, the surround sound... it was beautiful... -sobs-. i dunno y, but whenever i go to someone's house who has a ping pong table, i play, lol. so the majority of the night i played ping pong with ppl. some older, some younger, some adults. it was amazing and tiring! played nfs underground... not 2, but oh well, it was on ps2 n i was bored so i played with someone. I beat them, but that's only coz i play racing games a least twice a week. I mean common'. but oh well, that was fun. dinner there was SO FILLING! we had popeyes, everyone had to pay 7 bux, but i got my 7 bux worth. I think EVERYONE DID. and there were STILL leftovers!
aunt and uncle r living at my house now... but instead of a month it's just a few days. they said they didn't want to disturb my studies... but wht they don't know is i dunt study newayz. oh well, more comfortable with less ppl at my house.
i was tired... but i stayed up 'til 3 in the morning talking to a CERTAIN PERSON WHO DROWNS IN CLICHES! but that was fun... amused me for 3ish hours. had to keep sneaking up and down the house coz i needed to brush my teeth at 2!?!? then had to sneak bak up again to get my retainer coz i forgot to put it on. it was tiring. had to b very silent. i dun usually stay up that late... latest i stayed up b4 yesterday was 2 30 playing diablo II coz i was addicted to that game bak then. telling scary stories... freaking some person out. makes my life worth living... haha. dun look above u... think a spider's comming down, dun want it to fall in ur eyes or start crawling down ur nose.
i'm dun, cya.

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

Language-disability...

haha everyone here can speak another language... meaning they can do more then count to ten and say a few greeting words... i have a language disability...lol... it's true... i've tried learning cantonese... can i speak it? nope... french? nope... but i can "conjugate" verbs! wow they teach you the most useful things... grammer comes first before speaking... or so they say...

no offense m&m, but hasn't anyone told you to "be yourself"? i unno one of those life lessons...
btw... if you want to change your post... dont repost just edit your old post...

"What's With ReaLity Tv...SinCe When Has ANyOne Ate WorMs FOr BreaKFAst,BeEN STranDed On A Island iN REal Life...Very REality-like..."

Noobs...

Stupid M&Ms and his lack of patience with his noobie skillz.... not my fault you suck noob..... Yes, if you haven't noticed by now, it is 12:20 am on a friday morning. I'm gonna present a history presentation in 9 hours by myself, which still is being finished up (taking a break after three hours of work). Ten hours from now, i'll be on the subway heading downtown to a French restaurant as part of a french field trip. I didn't learn a foreign language to swear at people, well maybe, just so that i can do it too both fluent and non fluent frenchies.... well.... I gotta start my summary, and then finish it... Then get to school before 8:30 to get my presentation stuff photocopied and organized....

languages

When ppl r learning languages, y do they alwayz tend to want to know how to use the "bad" words first? This shows how "bad" ppl really r coz all they want to do is insult each other. u go anywhere, n if u ask "do u know chinese?" they'll most likely go yah. and if u ask them wht they know (ESPECIALLY TEENS/YOUTHS) they go "pok guy!" and most of them dunt even know wht that means. u ask someone if they know tamil, they'll know insulting words too. u go ask anime fans if they know japanesse... they start going "yah u baka!" It's not that i don't like these ppl, i just look down on them. it's good that they're practising other languages, but plz, LEARN GOOD WORDS! putting down ppl... i look down on them. eventhough i am guilty of putting down ppl, i usually do it coz they do it to me FIRST, it's a small joke... and/or at least i dun use foreign languages to make my point. I can go on forever... but i'm afraid that i'll run out of time. so for all u ppl who use foreign languages as a weapon, know that i look down on u. I know that some of u think i'm nothing, so go ahead and use 'em. I can't stop u... I'm just "disappointed" at u. and when I'M disappointed at u... that is just sad... -shakes head-
yaws, aunt n uncle comming tomorrow, gotta sleep in basement. -sighz-

ps. DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!
i dun usually look at drafts, but mm... u can help me move too lol. just afraid u'll freeze to death without a jacket.

all done here...

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

Whats With??

This blog.. i cant publish..


i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..


i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]

Whats With

This blog.. i cant publish..


i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..


i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]

This blog.. i cant publish..


i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..


i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]

WhAt'S WiTh??

WhAt'S WiTh??

In Ur FaCe U.U!!! lol


Wuts With Google Desktop Search?? They have every site in their database now they want to search ur pc? =]


lol

hahaa S.S I WOULD help u, but u didnt include so i wont. =]

blog express

i didn't wanna put numbers anymore so i made this one special. LOL! Prince of tennis dubbed... horrible... i know... so sad. I made a post on that b4... i didn't watch the whole thing. I stopped when they got off the train... coz it was that bad...
Anywayz! english was fun! we were trying to find pictures in magazines of conformists and non-conformists and we did... but today i kept ripping out thoses pages with fragrance scents! haha! my BAG smells like fragrance! especially my binder! haha... wonder wht'll happen when i open it in class... "whoe! who's wearing perfume?" good... coz they'll blame it on the girls... but it'll b bad when they find out it's from my binder. I did that in the beginning so i could wipe it on ppl and make them smell! haha... i haf weapons now... scary ain't it? -sighz- i'm so sad.
Well.. my aunt and uncle r moving bak to canada... and since they haf no place to stay (they sold their house here b4 they went bak to hong kong coz they thought they'd live there permanently but my uncle found a job here so they're comming bak for the job). NOW I GOTTA MOVE MY COMPUTER BAK DOWN! It's so kool.. coz if u baktrack everything, i think i made a post that said i moved my computer UP! arg... i'm also gonna b sleeping downstairs for at least a month coz my aunt and uncle hafta sleep in my room... can't have them sleep in the basement. (my room's nicer than the basement for ppl who don't know...) AT LEAST I CAN WATCH LATE NIGHT MOVIES! (whoops... did i say that out loud... n no, not porn. u nasty ppl). i should rent a movie ... with surround sound at night... not very good for neighbouring houses (my surround sound ain't as good as drakonen... darn uuuuuuuuu). so yah, now i gotta move all the important stuff downstairs... so that means not much comming to my house anymore n i hafta b on my "best" behavior. -sobs- they're comming this friday... such short notice... gotta move everything tomorrow. i was planning to go over to drakonen's house to get my controller and cd marker thing bak. Or... DRAKONEN COME OVER N HELP! nah... couldn't ask u to do that... nvm. u prolly haf work to do newayz... (psst... unknown... come! lol! wait.. u guys haf hmwk too... darn...).
oh well, cya! this is long enough for me.

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

Like a Virus it spreads...

currently infected with the north american strain of sleeping sickness... falling asleep in class is not a good thing... especially if the teacher is talking... not a smart thing to do... nope...

Holy Crap... Prince of Tennis (Fan DubbEd)... WHAT WAS THAT???!??... THEY ACTUALLY SHARE THAT GARBAGE!~!!... How can you sit through that whole thing???... what was good about it...umm... the music? all of the music... no *just* the background music... trying to sing the theme song and the ending song? no just stop please... the bad? every single other thing!~!!! leaves scars that will last forever...

You know you're getting old when

u know ur getting old when u start taking afternoon naps again at the age of 16? well.. if u dunt normally do it already. maybe by body just isn't strong enough to stay up late everyday (and my late isn't really late... my late can even b other ppl's early). anywayz... i need to re-organize my time so I start sleeping at least at 11. I only started sleeping after 11 after watching Matrix reloaded at night coz it was my first time watching it and i couldn't wait. Then everything just started going downhill from there...
well... some ppl at school get to ski/snow board tomorrow... i woulda too... if i wasn't too lazy in filling out forms and not too poor to hand in the fee lol. also, i dun think going to school at 6 45 and going skiing is a good idea since there may b a chance that someone might just go unconscious while skiing lol. i'd like to c that... a guy's halfway down the hill when suddenly he sleeps and tumbles all the way down taking 5 fellow skiers with him, lol. -sighz- i'm just jealous, ignore that.
I just found out our school actually DIDN'T have philosophy! AHH! oh the teacher said... maybe they do and she was misinformed! but eitherway, i won't pick it just coz the teacher said there wasn't. I stopped listening after she said there wasn't, but i heard something about the teacher not having enough codes or something (example HIF...blah blah blah... yah), and it was part of a leadership course...? dunno, either way it doesn't do much for me since i change philosophy into beginners guitar! lol! might hafta spend money buying a guitar (or renting one... dun c the point in renting though...). but... i can always just bubble in philosophy haha... since i already have a signature for intro to anthropology...etc... and it's in the same box as philosophy... -sighz- so disappointed. need to do hmwk, bye bye.

"In life, you don't need to win, just keep playing"

"What's With..."

mweh sorta did this one before but here goes...

"What's With Tests... Teachers don't really care on finding out what you know or need work on... yet they call it a "Test"

Down time....

Its been a while, maybe I'm trying to avoid posting, maybe I'm just afraid I'll open up. Life's been a drag lately, as work has been piling up and for once in my academic life, I can see myself starting to go down hill. I'm starting to loose sleep and self-esteem, which seems strange to talk about, humiliating to admit. Classes are starting to get irrelevant as the stupid people try to make class funny, but its putting us behind. You can only go along with it for so long, but now they're wasting my time. Its annoying, especially when there's nothing stopping them.

Maybe its that feeling of annoyance that making me feel weak lately, especially after I found out how weak I really am... From where I thought I was and wanted to be. The might be the first post where someone said something that put themselves down, or maybe I misinterpreted the earlier posts. Feeling useless doesn't help much, and the lack of sleep and silence is starting to ware me down. I keep lying to myself, telling me that its just a phase, just stress before stress free times. I keep pushing the notions away, not completing thoughts and procrastination.

That's my main problem, not enough self-motivation to get anything done. At first it was alright, but I can only hide away from it for so long, especially once the result of procrastinating starts coming around. So much I want to do, that I need to do, but I make excuses to push them away. The thing that scares me the most is the fact of "if not now, when" and the thought in the back of my head that's says thought that I will eventually end up procrastinating on these thoughts again and push thing back further.

I always assumed I worked hard, but what's working hard if you never reach your limitations, I have never actually pushed my self to, let alone passed my mental endurance. I have never had the sensations of breaking my limits to the point I can't do anymore, to the point of collapse. Maybe its because I've seen other people reach their limits and starting to surpass me. I've never had to catch up before, and now that I'm being forced to do so, I'm standing still. I'm not afraid, or maybe its that I don't know what I'm afraid of.

All I know for sure is, that ever since I was younger, I always thought to myself, "does it matter after death, does any of it matter, why waste my time for a lost cause, a battle I'm suppose to loose." People might find me paranoid, but I'm just typing without restrictions... Letting ideas flow... There I go again with another excuse. Maybe I'm trying to impress the wrong people, maybe I'm thinking to hard, maybe I'm not getting enough sleep.. Maybe this, maybe that, but I can't come to a conclusion, so I'm left in the middle again, trying to find an end. I know the end of me is death, I know its inevitable, but for some reason, that ending is not good enough, so I'm stuck in the middle of everything... Looking for an end to my thoughts, or I'm lost.... And suppose to be searching for a beginning, something I haven't seen in a long time

6:35: Some thinking has been going on, as well as some reading, and listening to music, when I realized something. I have no dreams. I have goals, I have ambitions, I have things I want to do, but no single entity that links all of these together. I don't have a solid base for my goals, which explains my lack of motivation. I have more opportunities then what most people have, and I try to keep as many opportunities open, but I have no single way of deciding anything. It's my dream, life long goal that I don't have, so I'm left in the shadows of others, trying to help them instead myself. I can try hard and do something, I can... But I don't, because I don't have a reason to, there's nowhere I want to be, there's no single place in the world I want to be, more than anything else. Everything is judged equal in my mind, there's nothing that stands out.... And I can't explain to myself why. I know its a problem, probably part of a bigger problem, but something that needs to be dealt with, but again, I don't have a reason to solve... So I'm left hanging, in a paradox I made for myself.... All I need is for a place to begin, even if it means starting over with nothing... at least I can use that as an excuse to myself....


I make no sense above, and I wrote it. I skip from one thing to another, but then again, I'm not reading what I'm typing, just letting it be.

*Side not... thers an annonymous person thats been posting lately, poking fun at us, with the shield of alack of identifiable name


They say that as the universe began with a bang, it will end with one, coming back into a singularity. From it, there, will be another release of energy from a bang, and the universe will start over again, and play out exactly as it did last time. If this is true, then this might be the only chance to get things right, for the sake of eternity.

post4

hey! OMGosh! we went to ... someones... house today again afterschool (12 05) and it was FRIGGEN RAINING! going to his house was fine... it was GOING BAK TO MY HOUSE THAT WAS HORRIBLE! i didn't actually time how long it took me to get from his house to mine, guessing about 25-30 (extra time from trying to AVOID puddles!). There's water dripping down my hair every second and my pants looks like it was just washed coz it's SOAKED! my bag's soaked, my soaks r damp, my jacket is really soaked... the only thing not soaked is my sweater since it was under the jacket. newayz, yah! we almost did everything we did on saturday 'cept the poker, the pizza, n yah... it was mostly all video games. Naruto2... i almost mastered it! I ACTUALLY GOT TO C THE 3RD hokages shinigami thing! wooooooo! that was awesome. I want that game... gotta get ... someone... to burn it for me so i can play it at unknownuser's house or something (closest friend that has a ps2 i can think of). At the end, we played prince of tennis! yah!! eventhough we can prolly only win a game when ... someone... plays, it was fun. yah... no one got a match point 'cept when me and ... someone... played. it was all good... table tennis got me very tired. and now i just remembered i got hmwk to do. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
anywayz, i got more song downloading to do from POT. also need to do my hmwk, wrap a gift, make a card, n stuff... yah... no one really reads this anywayz. so bye!
p.s. When is the new background gonna b up??? (directed at m&m's)

note: somebody is typed to protect the person we're trying to avoid mentioning.
edited: OMG! AND NOW IT'S SUNNY! I GO OUT, IT RAINS, I COME IN IT SHINES!
reedited: oh yah, we all left the school b4 jacky soo all the guests were at one place, and the host was somewhere else. our motto: "he has to go home sometime"

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

BUsy Like a BEE...

are they even busy? haha they just sound cool together... yes my lack of posting is due to the result of multiple teachers who just "coincidentally" decide to have a test on the same week... there was at least a month without tests... and then boom!... 4 tests in one week... i dont think they should call it a test as i'm sure their purpose isn't to learn what we know and then help us improve in the areas that we are weak in... no i'm sure its just there to get marks for our report cards... stupid... well anyways people have fun arguing on the lack of posting... i'm sure everyone has their reasons...

"What's With Chores... PARent'S WAy Of Giving Out "Homework"

post3

i'm jus saying he's more hardworking than u! and he still finds time to post! lol.

anywayz, yah... got a new video card thanx to drakonen, FINALLY bought a christmas present i owed somebody from last christmas, got to play a little prince of tennis and naruto at somebody's house (he may actually read this... wow.), and go to play table tennis again, got a little exercise jogging, played a lil' poker... n datz all. Prince of tennis fan dubbed version wasn't that good... u can hear the air from their mouths on the mic. voice for echizen doesn't sound 12, it sounds more like 20, and it sounds so weird! i dunno, it wasn't THAT bad, but wasn't that good either....

anywayz, gotta go do my hmwk. first time i actually haf hmwk from all 4 subjects. cya!

note: my align center and colour change isn't working.

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

S.S

i quote

" if UU can find time to post, anyone can "

from s.s


what exactly are you implying?

Anyways.. Ms.C is being stupid again.. Since when democracy needs to be spelt with a capital D?

Hope the petition will help.. so she can get fired and never come back =]

4...

There r FOUR ppl doing this blog... and only HALF of us r actually BLOGGIN! hallo? if reading this and ur part of the 4 i'm refering to and ur not posting, START!

had a history test today... easier than i thought but i still think i'll get bad on it. I love writing fake letters for tests, lol. I chose to write a letter to someone as a soldier fighting in WWI. I was gonna bring home a cute nurse, hehe. ppl got gassed, shot, blown up... yah... the letter was fun...

other than that... looking forward to monday since our school has an extremely early day off. 12 05! oh yah! dunno wht i'll b doing for 3 hours... -sighz- then comes the bubble day and yah...

start POSTING! if UU can find time to post, anyone can!

"Live life like you are now, but better"

What's With...

"What's With Monopoly's Jails... YoU Bribe Them With 50$ And THey Let You Go FRee... Corrupt?!??..."

"What's With Monopoly's "Just Visiting" for The jaiLs... Can'T I say I'm "Just Visiting" BoardWaLK?... "

Aftermath...

ya so everyone beat me posting about what happened at ss's party... i'm sure my stomach must of had somekind of workout... laughing for so long and all... another short post thats right...

"What's With Monopoly Pieces a Dog, a CAr, a Hat?!?...Since When DId THey Have To STaY in hoTels??"

^wait i was going to say something... what was it???... oh well nvm...

Edited: by SS (that's my name now? lol) yah... black to white. Sorry UU

Blog looked boring...

Hey.... the blog looked boring without any new posts so i thought i'd type up stuff... drakonen and I finally finished Full Metal Alchemist... took a while since we were procrastinating for prolly under a year... (well i started watching it after Hikaru No Go... which was a WHILE bak). Anywayz yah... i took a 3 hour nap today... that's how bored i was.
I'm having trouble picking my courses... many ppl don't have enough courses that they're interested in... I have too much... So let's start counting shall we, since I'm bored and i'm trying to procrastinate on doing my hmwk. (8) All three sciences (to keep my choices for careers open) which leaves us to. (5) math (maybe the 3M course since it says that the pre-requisite has to b 80% in the 2D class, i only got 74%, so i dunno), (4) english (academic no duh), and that leads us to 3 more! Come bak after the break, we shall count down the last 3, don't touch that keyboard/mouse!

-Break-

And we're bak! So, yah, u can c how bored i am... I'm also planning to take (3) Intro to Anthro, Psycho, and Socio (too lazy to type out the last half). Now those are the 6 that i'm sure i'll be wanting to take. The next r those I'm not sure yet so need comments or face to face advice. "Philosophy, the Big question", "Beginner Guitar Grade 11", "Phys Ed. comp-Male", and... "World Religions: Beliefs, Issues and Religious Traditions" (thing says Religiour and i'm not sure if it's a spelling mistake or something so yah... take note). I wonder if i'm forgetting anything... oh well... that's that. Bye, need to prep my mind for hmwk.

"Live life like you are now, but better"