I'm finally starting to make blogging a full time routine, and the fact that S.S is finally openly expressing the advantage of the blog is encouraging.... enough so to make me blog again :)
So today I went to my optometrist and was told what i already knew... that my eyes were worse than the last time I went. She also chatised me because i didn't come sooner (suppose to go every year) and that I waited until I lost my glasses to go. So after hearing the bad news and getting my perscription, I went to a eyewear store. After talking to the retailer, I found out that I had a trade of to make. If I get glasses, then I will loose peripheral vision. If I get contacts, I loose some clarity since my right eye has stigmatism (either my eye isn't a perfect circle or there is miss allignment with the horizontal and vertical planes in my retina, probably the former). So now its down to what's more important, periferal vision or clarity.
I decided that I should at least have a pair of glasses since they'll last me longer, and then get contacts when I have enough money for them. So while I was looking around another store for frames, I talked to my uncle (who's living with me for the past month and will continue to for the next five) and he said he knew a good store back in Malvern Mall. Unfortunately, time ran out for us to go there, so now I have to wait till Monday. I was thinking and I like the way frameless glasses look on me, so I might consider getting those.
The real reason were going to Malvern is because the people at that store are really good at matching frames to people. The pair my uncle has look very good on him and you can't notice the glasses at all, which is important.... Supposedly. I think its a good idea since I can't exactly see myself clearly in the first place to pick a good pair of glasses.
So again, I write this up with my left eye closed and my right eye squinting... But not as often....
Saturday, April 30, 2005
gloomy day
Blogging is kool. u can vent about how crappy ur day went here instead of putting it up on msn. Like seriously... i despise ppl who type out their love life to the public. Like, WHO CAREZ! "I love u ___! I'll b with u alwayz!" darn ppl. I used to b that way too... i'm apologize to ppl now. That's why i despise myself too. -sighz- I dunno, saturdays feel so sad now. maybe it's coz of the weather.
Don't u hate it when ur with a group of ppl, but to u, it seems that ur out of the group. Like when ppl are talking and ur silent and ppl just ignore u or when they're in this circle and u just seem to b out of the circle eventhough ur standing in it making u feel small and alone? u just want to belong somewhere. lol. Thanx to anime, i can forget all that feeling! watching anime is like drinking beer or something to me. I dunno if it's healthier, prolly is... or isn't.
So the next time ur with a group and u feel left out of whtever they're talking about, kno that u r NOT alone!
Anywayz, so tired today. I still need to do stuff for the stupid presentations on tuesday. So now i'm tired, stressed out, and emotionally unstable. lol. ^^ wht a nice combination. I just hope the readers are having a much better day than i am. If ur not, then i hope u'll have a better tomorrow. If u are... stop laughing.
I just remembered... i can't even watch the anime i wanted to! The discs that i got are either a little screwed up or the files weren't burnt properly. Now the only anime i can watch is read or die since i actually downloaded it. I wonder wht woulda happend if i borrowed that one too. like seriously, i watch like 2 episodes and the 3rd one doesn't work! WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME. so i left 3 anime's UNFINISHED! that i just started! ugh!
Don't u hate it when ur with a group of ppl, but to u, it seems that ur out of the group. Like when ppl are talking and ur silent and ppl just ignore u or when they're in this circle and u just seem to b out of the circle eventhough ur standing in it making u feel small and alone? u just want to belong somewhere. lol. Thanx to anime, i can forget all that feeling! watching anime is like drinking beer or something to me. I dunno if it's healthier, prolly is... or isn't.
So the next time ur with a group and u feel left out of whtever they're talking about, kno that u r NOT alone!
Anywayz, so tired today. I still need to do stuff for the stupid presentations on tuesday. So now i'm tired, stressed out, and emotionally unstable. lol. ^^ wht a nice combination. I just hope the readers are having a much better day than i am. If ur not, then i hope u'll have a better tomorrow. If u are... stop laughing.
I just remembered... i can't even watch the anime i wanted to! The discs that i got are either a little screwed up or the files weren't burnt properly. Now the only anime i can watch is read or die since i actually downloaded it. I wonder wht woulda happend if i borrowed that one too. like seriously, i watch like 2 episodes and the 3rd one doesn't work! WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME. so i left 3 anime's UNFINISHED! that i just started! ugh!
"Emotions aren't always for the weak"
Hi
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GAY DAY!~!~
got some dum guy knocked at my door at 8 am... wut a retard -_- not mentioning any names.. such as alun... tomorrow wakin up at 6.. not for church... for the needs of others...
dam those ppl to hell.. seriously. who the hell come over at 8 am... to do a lousy skkoool work... i dont like these ppl.. remind me to never work wif them.. ever
bye bye... now 6 hours of civicz =]
GAY DAY!~!~
got some dum guy knocked at my door at 8 am... wut a retard -_- not mentioning any names.. such as alun... tomorrow wakin up at 6.. not for church... for the needs of others...
dam those ppl to hell.. seriously. who the hell come over at 8 am... to do a lousy skkoool work... i dont like these ppl.. remind me to never work wif them.. ever
bye bye... now 6 hours of civicz =]
Friday, April 29, 2005
What's With...
Whats With Football... If Its The Word For EurOpean SoccEr... ThEn What's The Word For EuroPean FootbAll? Soccer?
- yes i'm cheating...shut up...
- yes i'm cheating...shut up...
Blinded 4 meters out...
Lost my glasses on the way to school yesterday. I'm near-sighted, which means I have trouble seeing things at a distance. Well, I can see it, I just can't distinguish details. Also, my left eye is weaker than my right eye, so now I'm stuck winking to see through my better eye and squinting to get a better picture than that. Its so annoying, and I do it automatically, so my eyes hurt and I'm getting a headache. To make the past two days worse, my school time has been spent writing notes off the chalk board. Most of the teacher can't write legibly even when I have my glasses on. I mean come on, you'd think legibility is something that a teacher needs, especially an English teacher. Now, I have to finish my mystery novel, write up a couple of paragraphs, then make a presentation. So much eye strain.
To top all this off, S.S decided to MSN me in font color that indistinguishable. I mean, common, some sympathy at least. He's living it up watching anime, and I can't do that since I can't read the subtitles properly and the images all look blurry. So now, instead of downloading all the anime I wanted to, I'm downloading a lot of OSTs. For those who've watched Gundam Wing, I highly recommend getting all the OST. I found the entire set at boxtorrents. Now all I need is Berserk, Gundam Seed destiny, Apocalyptica, Escaflowne, and some others.
Not that this probably matters, but there's a dot moving up the wall beside me. I think its a spider, but all I see is some brown thing go from circle to octagon, to circle as it moves up. I'm guessing its a spider since I've let one live for the past couple weeks on the same wall (iat least I hope its one, I don't hate spiders, but too many means to many webs around the house).
The two girls that sit in front and behind me in English class decided to pass time this week with MASH. Its not very pleasing to see names of people who you don't know, are unattractive, don't talk to me, and already have a boyfriend. Its so annoying, especially when I can't see what being written by them or what's being written on the board. All I notice is giggling, random names, and pointing back and forth between me and a piece of paper. That, and them asking me to say stop. Stupid MASH.... Never was something guys liked.... At least I think.... SAA might think differently, girls fight to be on his lis.
I have an appointment with my optometrist tomorrow to get my eyes checked, so that I can buy a new pair of glasses. Maybe I'll try getting contacts or something. Maybe.....
To top all this off, S.S decided to MSN me in font color that indistinguishable. I mean, common, some sympathy at least. He's living it up watching anime, and I can't do that since I can't read the subtitles properly and the images all look blurry. So now, instead of downloading all the anime I wanted to, I'm downloading a lot of OSTs. For those who've watched Gundam Wing, I highly recommend getting all the OST. I found the entire set at boxtorrents. Now all I need is Berserk, Gundam Seed destiny, Apocalyptica, Escaflowne, and some others.
Not that this probably matters, but there's a dot moving up the wall beside me. I think its a spider, but all I see is some brown thing go from circle to octagon, to circle as it moves up. I'm guessing its a spider since I've let one live for the past couple weeks on the same wall (iat least I hope its one, I don't hate spiders, but too many means to many webs around the house).
The two girls that sit in front and behind me in English class decided to pass time this week with MASH. Its not very pleasing to see names of people who you don't know, are unattractive, don't talk to me, and already have a boyfriend. Its so annoying, especially when I can't see what being written by them or what's being written on the board. All I notice is giggling, random names, and pointing back and forth between me and a piece of paper. That, and them asking me to say stop. Stupid MASH.... Never was something guys liked.... At least I think.... SAA might think differently, girls fight to be on his lis.
I have an appointment with my optometrist tomorrow to get my eyes checked, so that I can buy a new pair of glasses. Maybe I'll try getting contacts or something. Maybe.....
Gundam Seed Finish!
-sighz- me posting one after another doesn't look good on the blog... oh well, not my problem. One person can't see, one person prolly too busy with hmwk, and the last one i haf no clue...
Well, now for the purpose of this post. I FINALLY FINISHED WATCHING GUNDAM SEED! YAY!!! hahaha. phew! those 8 episodes took everything out of me. No, i didn't wait for kenneth to burn me the last 8 episodes... he prolly forgot. Thanks to connie, i finished watching gundam seed! and thanks to her, i'll b busy watching mantantei loki ragnarok, X Tv, and Chrono Crusade. Also finished downloading Read or Die Tv so i'll b busy watching a heck of a load of anime. sadly, i won't b able to finish it all soon coz of STUPID HOMEWORK! have a science presentation AND a history presentation on TUESDAY! ON THE SAME DAY!!! arg! Now i need to research the blitzkrieg and thunderstorms! ><
Dont u just hate it when u start watching an anime, and u start feeling like ur with ur favourite characters on this journey... then the anime has to end? We all watch it for the end, but once it reaches the end, u just can't bare to part with it. it's so sad.
well the important thing is i finished gundam seed and thts all that counts. K BYE! i'm finished for today.
Well, now for the purpose of this post. I FINALLY FINISHED WATCHING GUNDAM SEED! YAY!!! hahaha. phew! those 8 episodes took everything out of me. No, i didn't wait for kenneth to burn me the last 8 episodes... he prolly forgot. Thanks to connie, i finished watching gundam seed! and thanks to her, i'll b busy watching mantantei loki ragnarok, X Tv, and Chrono Crusade. Also finished downloading Read or Die Tv so i'll b busy watching a heck of a load of anime. sadly, i won't b able to finish it all soon coz of STUPID HOMEWORK! have a science presentation AND a history presentation on TUESDAY! ON THE SAME DAY!!! arg! Now i need to research the blitzkrieg and thunderstorms! ><
Dont u just hate it when u start watching an anime, and u start feeling like ur with ur favourite characters on this journey... then the anime has to end? We all watch it for the end, but once it reaches the end, u just can't bare to part with it. it's so sad.
well the important thing is i finished gundam seed and thts all that counts. K BYE! i'm finished for today.
"Parting is such sweet sorrow" -Juliet-
Monday, April 25, 2005
3 Posts!
Kool! we hafn't had one of those for a looong time. 3 different ppl posting on one day... it woulda been better if it had been 4 different ppl posting... but i guess tht won't happen for an even longer time.
so... -whistles- thts really all i wanted to say. to report on my day to make this post long, i went to school, got off at 1 25, played monopoly (which i lost), and did homework. So weird doing hmwk b4 6... since i wanna go to volleyball i have to. ugh, gonna b so tired tonight and gonna b sore again tomorrow. I just got over my soreness like 2 days ago! -sighz- I can't over exert myself or i'm dead for track practises. I don't think i'll b doing polevaulting anymore... missed like so many practices coz I DIDN'T KNO ABOUT THEM! stupid ppl don't inform me. no announcements... guess it's the "student's responsiblity to find out". pshhhh... i dunt kno how to polevault newayz. i'm more focused on the jumping, yay! newayz, gotta get ready, bye. And the quote isn't the one that i wanted to put, still hafn't remembered wht it was.
so... -whistles- thts really all i wanted to say. to report on my day to make this post long, i went to school, got off at 1 25, played monopoly (which i lost), and did homework. So weird doing hmwk b4 6... since i wanna go to volleyball i have to. ugh, gonna b so tired tonight and gonna b sore again tomorrow. I just got over my soreness like 2 days ago! -sighz- I can't over exert myself or i'm dead for track practises. I don't think i'll b doing polevaulting anymore... missed like so many practices coz I DIDN'T KNO ABOUT THEM! stupid ppl don't inform me. no announcements... guess it's the "student's responsiblity to find out". pshhhh... i dunt kno how to polevault newayz. i'm more focused on the jumping, yay! newayz, gotta get ready, bye. And the quote isn't the one that i wanted to put, still hafn't remembered wht it was.
"The flame war starts with a spark, and ends when everything is destroyed"
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Rain....
Yesterday, I woke up at 7:00 am, to meet up with a my team for the Enivrothon at warden Station. What is this Envirothon? Its a competition between school (damn University of Toronto School) in areas of Wildlife, Aquatics, Soils, Forestry, and the main topic for this year, Preservation of Natural Heritage. It involved an hours prep for a 8 min presentation in front of a panel of judges, and 4 team test in each area of expertise which included a written and practical test for testing and stating various characteristics of the site. So this included taking water samples and testing it and making judgment of the area based on the animals that lived their and the tracks they left behind. For each area, the team had 20 min to complete. Seems pretty easy except for the fact that the task of learning all this is huge (for the other schools there, its part of the school curriculum, for us, its extra-curricular). In the end, my team won in the are of Wildlife (my team is the only new team, the rest have done it before). Another one of the three teams from my school won in Aquatics. In the end, the team that won last year won this year (damn University of Toronto School) and they get to move on to the Provincials in Hamilton.
It was fun, except for the stress and the fact that all the test and written work had to be done outside in the rain. Its not easy writing a test underneath an umbrella and take tests of the area in the pouring rain with the rain affecting the test we did. To top that all off, we had to complete ten pages worth of work in 20 minutes. At least it was multiple choice.
By the time I got home, I was worn down and exhausted. I ended up going over to my grandpa's where I had a long philosophical argument on man with my uncle with a swore throat and clogged sinus. It was a very exhausting day.
That was yesterday, as today was spent at home trying to get back all the programs I had before I reformatted my computer and installed my new large hard drive. I'm now trying to figure out how to fill up 200 GB of space. I've been downloading a lot of OSTs including Vision of Escaflowne, Gundam Seed Destiny, Gundam Wing, and the American Dragon Z. I managed to surpass the amount of data my old hard drive would allow me to have of 20 GB. Its funny since I bought my old hard drive 5 years ago for $150 (the rest of computer is almost two years old) and I bought my new hard drive for $150 again. Its amazing how times have changed. But I still need to build another computer before my sister goes to high school because we're both going be using it a lot.
So that's about how my weekend went, and its now 10:00 with my cleaned but not folded clothes sitting beside me in a basket. I don't know what to do right now, and I hope that tomorrow isn't as bad a day as S.S's just experienced. I wish i had an early dismissal, but i have a late start on wednesday and alot of work ahead of me at the YMCA that i missed with my cold.
It was fun, except for the stress and the fact that all the test and written work had to be done outside in the rain. Its not easy writing a test underneath an umbrella and take tests of the area in the pouring rain with the rain affecting the test we did. To top that all off, we had to complete ten pages worth of work in 20 minutes. At least it was multiple choice.
By the time I got home, I was worn down and exhausted. I ended up going over to my grandpa's where I had a long philosophical argument on man with my uncle with a swore throat and clogged sinus. It was a very exhausting day.
That was yesterday, as today was spent at home trying to get back all the programs I had before I reformatted my computer and installed my new large hard drive. I'm now trying to figure out how to fill up 200 GB of space. I've been downloading a lot of OSTs including Vision of Escaflowne, Gundam Seed Destiny, Gundam Wing, and the American Dragon Z. I managed to surpass the amount of data my old hard drive would allow me to have of 20 GB. Its funny since I bought my old hard drive 5 years ago for $150 (the rest of computer is almost two years old) and I bought my new hard drive for $150 again. Its amazing how times have changed. But I still need to build another computer before my sister goes to high school because we're both going be using it a lot.
So that's about how my weekend went, and its now 10:00 with my cleaned but not folded clothes sitting beside me in a basket. I don't know what to do right now, and I hope that tomorrow isn't as bad a day as S.S's just experienced. I wish i had an early dismissal, but i have a late start on wednesday and alot of work ahead of me at the YMCA that i missed with my cold.
unlucky
hey! u ever had a day when u wake up in the morning and u just know the day's gonna b bad? well i did! friday was a horrible day! and it was a FRIDAY! there was nothing special going at school that day... nothing to look forward to. The highlight of the day was watching anime! DO U UNDERSTAND HOW SAD THAT IS? not that it's a bad thing, i mean when a new episode comes out, it's always good news unless that episode is a friggen flashbak or recap. ugh! hate those kind of episodes. but luckily, it wasn't a recap episode so i was saved. I think i took out my bad mood on some ppl... so sorry to those victims.
So yah... couldn't go to my first track/field practice/try-out whtever it was... coz they announce it AT the day not b4!! which i think is stupid! unless i missed it, which i don't think happend coz a lot of ppl weren't ready. Only ppl who had proper attire were prolly those that were having phys.ed. this semester. oh well, i couldn't practise neways since my muscles hurt... coz of volleyball which i'm going again tomorrow! haha... i think. No...i probably am since tomorrow is an early dismissal... go staff meetings! they should have a strike for more staff meetings. yep yep, make everyone happier.
Daniel's moving this week! haha... i dunno why i'm announcing this in the blog... so useless. If he needs help, i'm so going! it'll b so fun! especially when i break his stuff! haha... ask his dad to sign stuff for our community service... eventhough i'm done. (i'd laugh if someone actually did do that).
Darn whether... why must it rain on weekends?!?!? I was so bored on saturday! I watched like 27 Gundam Seed sub episodes on one day! watched 5 on friday, and 10 today which makes 42! I don't haf the remaining 8 yet, need someone to burn it for me! i'm not asking... i already haf someone burning it for me... haha. CLIMAX! ahhh! why must the episodes i have stop at the climatic episodes?!?!? HUH? WHY!!! don't answer, i don't expect one newayz. I don't really like playing monopoly with the computer... not that fun. U need someone beside u to laugh at or ally with so u haf two ppl against the computer(s). newayz, i'm done for today... doing hmwk.
So yah... couldn't go to my first track/field practice/try-out whtever it was... coz they announce it AT the day not b4!! which i think is stupid! unless i missed it, which i don't think happend coz a lot of ppl weren't ready. Only ppl who had proper attire were prolly those that were having phys.ed. this semester. oh well, i couldn't practise neways since my muscles hurt... coz of volleyball which i'm going again tomorrow! haha... i think. No...i probably am since tomorrow is an early dismissal... go staff meetings! they should have a strike for more staff meetings. yep yep, make everyone happier.
Daniel's moving this week! haha... i dunno why i'm announcing this in the blog... so useless. If he needs help, i'm so going! it'll b so fun! especially when i break his stuff! haha... ask his dad to sign stuff for our community service... eventhough i'm done. (i'd laugh if someone actually did do that).
Darn whether... why must it rain on weekends?!?!? I was so bored on saturday! I watched like 27 Gundam Seed sub episodes on one day! watched 5 on friday, and 10 today which makes 42! I don't haf the remaining 8 yet, need someone to burn it for me! i'm not asking... i already haf someone burning it for me... haha. CLIMAX! ahhh! why must the episodes i have stop at the climatic episodes?!?!? HUH? WHY!!! don't answer, i don't expect one newayz. I don't really like playing monopoly with the computer... not that fun. U need someone beside u to laugh at or ally with so u haf two ppl against the computer(s). newayz, i'm done for today... doing hmwk.
[I thought up this really good quote, but i forgot it so i'll leave this one quoteless this time until i remember what the quote was!]
All work and no play keeps blogging away...
busy lately, realized that i havent posted for ... a while... a long while...
What's with *culminating activites*...
lame idea... most of the time it isnt even related to the actual school work that youve done for the whole year... the just tell you to do a presentation/project on who knows what... and then they add the activities part so basicly teachers can do whatever they want yet call it the same thing...
well thats my two cents... <- seriously a stupid phrase i think i actually gave three cents but mweh...
What's with *culminating activites*...
lame idea... most of the time it isnt even related to the actual school work that youve done for the whole year... the just tell you to do a presentation/project on who knows what... and then they add the activities part so basicly teachers can do whatever they want yet call it the same thing...
well thats my two cents... <- seriously a stupid phrase i think i actually gave three cents but mweh...
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
COMPLETE OWNAGE!
hey! it's me again! two posts today, wow. that means i won't haf much to post later in the week, haha. newayz, yah. Daniel came over today afterschool since he had piano and apprently it's better he stayed at my house than go to his house so thts that... but because he came to my house, he got me to download my monoply game on my computer. I've been playing it for 3 hours now, and I OWNED THE COMPUTER 7 TIMES! oh yah! ok ok, lemme report this. umm... I owned all 4 railroads, both waterworks and electric company, and 10 hotels. 2 of those hotels came from boardwalk; 2 from Baltic Ave. and Mediterranean Ave; 3 from Oriental, Vermont and Conneticut; 3 from St.Charles, States and Virginia. Because of the shortage of cash, i only got 1 hotel each on North Carolina and Pacific. Aw man... just total ownage. U had to haf been there to experiance the joy... -sighz- ok now i'm done.
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
useless post
hey... i'm just bored, eating lunch. I haf a lot of time on my hands... and my feet. My muscles still ache... so horrible. Hurts when i sit, hurts when i stand, hurts when i walk... horrible. DARN U VOLLEYBALL! Some person keeps asking me to sit down in the morning... hurts when i sit down on a chair... imagine sitting on the ground! I'd haf to roll to school instead of getting bak up!
So yah... umm... go Backstreet boys!!! ahhahahahahaha! i dunno... don't make fun of me, they were the first band i listened to, and first cd i bought. They brought me into the music world! without them... i'd b... musicless... And now they're bak! yay! I don't like them that much, but they make me remember my childhood and wht happend way bak when.... makes me sound old. I'd tell my childhood memories with this band, but i'm afraid it'd take up a lot of space and a lot of useless junk no one wants to kno, so to avoid any unessasary closage of this window, i won't tell those memories. haha. Well maybe one... like me attempting to b a DJ haha. Drakonen remembers... such embarassing moments. I still haf the tapes, too lazy to burn 'em. I am so gonna buy their album when it comes out... just haf to wear a mask so no one knows its me. no... tht makes it more suspicious, nvm.
Many ppl say boy bands all sound the same... well look punk rock bands now. By trying to b all different, they're all the same! "to b different, lets dye our hair and wear noserings", and so everyone does that and now they're all the same! Sure all the boy band songs may b mostly about love, if u don't like anyone or don't love anyone, then don't listen to it! sheesh. loveless ppl.
So yah... umm... go Backstreet boys!!! ahhahahahahaha! i dunno... don't make fun of me, they were the first band i listened to, and first cd i bought. They brought me into the music world! without them... i'd b... musicless... And now they're bak! yay! I don't like them that much, but they make me remember my childhood and wht happend way bak when.... makes me sound old. I'd tell my childhood memories with this band, but i'm afraid it'd take up a lot of space and a lot of useless junk no one wants to kno, so to avoid any unessasary closage of this window, i won't tell those memories. haha. Well maybe one... like me attempting to b a DJ haha. Drakonen remembers... such embarassing moments. I still haf the tapes, too lazy to burn 'em. I am so gonna buy their album when it comes out... just haf to wear a mask so no one knows its me. no... tht makes it more suspicious, nvm.
Many ppl say boy bands all sound the same... well look punk rock bands now. By trying to b all different, they're all the same! "to b different, lets dye our hair and wear noserings", and so everyone does that and now they're all the same! Sure all the boy band songs may b mostly about love, if u don't like anyone or don't love anyone, then don't listen to it! sheesh. loveless ppl.
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Most beautiful day....
Today is the greatest weather I've ever seen and felt (as far as I can remember)... It's amazing, with clear skies and a slow cool breeze with the air at room temperature... So beautiful..... As you probably guess, I didn't spend a single time in the weather because of school at 5 test (four periods, but I went on an environmental trip last Friday, missing a test, making me take it today). Do you know how much stress that is? After that, I had to wait alone at STC in my school uniform for the three people I started working out with. Two of which are done high school, the other in my class. I'm the newest and weakest member of all of us. These guys are friggin' huge!.... When I stand next to them. So I'm a bit tired, and I'm eating a lot more, and stretching more, but my muscles don't hurt even after I started going beyond my limits. It feels friggin'' great, except for the locker room smell and too many grown men not wearing clothes... (never been flashed to suffocation before, don't want to ever again). I don't see much difference in strength, but today is the second day that I went, so, I'm bidding my time.
S.S has been the only person posting lately... For a couple weeks. I can't make any excuses, I'm just being lazy, this blog is my homepage, and yet I don't type anything up. Its just me being very lazy..... And to comment S.S's blog, I am one of the three hoggers. I apologize to the trouble and frustration I caused people, but playing halo 2 in co-op is extremely addicting and fun. And the next b-day party we have (probably me since I don't know when Smarties Wannabe was born (M&M)), there will be something where every single person can participate on one thing together, or atleast I'll try.... I'm thinking go-carting.
DAMN IT, i just lost three paragraphs from this post. DAMN IT.... ARGHH.... (some people actually say "arghh" out loud.... weird people"...
So I was saying stuff.... like how.... i'm addicted to a new song that happens to be on the shrek two soundtrack, Frou Frou - Hold Out For A Hero. The song is a euorpean duo of techno and pop, and this one has the electric guitar in it, kinda.
What else.... i need the picture of the other members of this group in order to do cell-shaded pictures to post, as well as some ideas as what to do with the layout.
Something else.... the time is now 11:23.... wow... this takes some time..... I wonder how S.S does it and why the rest of us don't.....
S.S has been the only person posting lately... For a couple weeks. I can't make any excuses, I'm just being lazy, this blog is my homepage, and yet I don't type anything up. Its just me being very lazy..... And to comment S.S's blog, I am one of the three hoggers. I apologize to the trouble and frustration I caused people, but playing halo 2 in co-op is extremely addicting and fun. And the next b-day party we have (probably me since I don't know when Smarties Wannabe was born (M&M)), there will be something where every single person can participate on one thing together, or atleast I'll try.... I'm thinking go-carting.
DAMN IT, i just lost three paragraphs from this post. DAMN IT.... ARGHH.... (some people actually say "arghh" out loud.... weird people"...
So I was saying stuff.... like how.... i'm addicted to a new song that happens to be on the shrek two soundtrack, Frou Frou - Hold Out For A Hero. The song is a euorpean duo of techno and pop, and this one has the electric guitar in it, kinda.
What else.... i need the picture of the other members of this group in order to do cell-shaded pictures to post, as well as some ideas as what to do with the layout.
Something else.... the time is now 11:23.... wow... this takes some time..... I wonder how S.S does it and why the rest of us don't.....
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it's too tiring to keep looking at my first word of the last post. So if i can't think of a title, i'll just leave it blank...
Well i guess i was wrong, i thought there would b posting on Sunday, or maybe even Monday, but it's Tuesday... and still no posts from the others. One reason may b coz blogger is a lil' weird and it won't publish the post, but oh well. Either that, or ppl r too lazy to post something. So i shall post for them, since we were all at the same place on saturday newayz. Yay... now two of the members of this blog is 16! horray. Birthday party was fun! I won in life... it's kool since i don't win in real life. Got to play naruto and pot, eventhough the majority of the time was spent playing halo 2. Only thing i hate about that game is that it's first person shooter so i get dizzy and feel like vomitting everytime i see it, and no one shares the controllers (only 3 ppl actually played... i think... since there was controller hog going on... and no, no one offered their controller until i told daniel to give it to jon ma. Such disappointment... well there were only 3 ppl that played to my knowledge, i could b wrong. in which case i'm sorry, but if i'm right, may my fury b upon u). Next time... ppl, plz remember to SHARE! Even if i win in something, i eventually give it to someone else! C! i'm not a hypocrit... for now...
Two ppl came to my house on monday... won't say who... but i must say, i congratulate them for sneaking up the basement stairs without me hearing the foot steps. Normally i could hear the footsteps, but i caught them trying to go up to my room coz of their clothing sound. heheh, too bad. Went to play volleyball on Monday with people...(Calvin, Robert, Grace... Jimmy usually went but not when i went yesterday. I don't even know if some ppl that read this blog kno who they are, most do... but ppl i don't kno won't kno... ok, i'll stop). Yah... played with like older ppl who were university level. The older guys were scary... especially their spikes. Some of them were cocky though, thinking that just coz they were older, they'd b the best. Which they were... but their attitude pisses me off... eventhough i don't show that im pissed coz if i did stuff would happen. hahaha. So tired, my back hurts, so do my arms, and my right pinky, and my legs. It's like working out, oh the soreness. pinky hurts mainly coz i played table tennis most of the time. haha. Thts not suppose to happen... Was so dehydrated i drank a bottle of water in 2 minutes.
Wht else do i haf to say... a policeman came to my house today during my lunch break. That was scary. Said someone from my house called 911 in the morning, which didn't happen. My phone is dead also. Can't get dial tone, which means neone who calls also won't b able to get to us. There's just this static on the phone. (For one particular reader, Samara will come out of the phone and attack u! mwahahahaz!). Yeah.. so i'm done. Need to do my CIVICS hmwk... haha. Finally finished careers... now onto civics... which has more hmwk. nooo.... the pain.
Well i guess i was wrong, i thought there would b posting on Sunday, or maybe even Monday, but it's Tuesday... and still no posts from the others. One reason may b coz blogger is a lil' weird and it won't publish the post, but oh well. Either that, or ppl r too lazy to post something. So i shall post for them, since we were all at the same place on saturday newayz. Yay... now two of the members of this blog is 16! horray. Birthday party was fun! I won in life... it's kool since i don't win in real life. Got to play naruto and pot, eventhough the majority of the time was spent playing halo 2. Only thing i hate about that game is that it's first person shooter so i get dizzy and feel like vomitting everytime i see it, and no one shares the controllers (only 3 ppl actually played... i think... since there was controller hog going on... and no, no one offered their controller until i told daniel to give it to jon ma. Such disappointment... well there were only 3 ppl that played to my knowledge, i could b wrong. in which case i'm sorry, but if i'm right, may my fury b upon u). Next time... ppl, plz remember to SHARE! Even if i win in something, i eventually give it to someone else! C! i'm not a hypocrit... for now...
Two ppl came to my house on monday... won't say who... but i must say, i congratulate them for sneaking up the basement stairs without me hearing the foot steps. Normally i could hear the footsteps, but i caught them trying to go up to my room coz of their clothing sound. heheh, too bad. Went to play volleyball on Monday with people...(Calvin, Robert, Grace... Jimmy usually went but not when i went yesterday. I don't even know if some ppl that read this blog kno who they are, most do... but ppl i don't kno won't kno... ok, i'll stop). Yah... played with like older ppl who were university level. The older guys were scary... especially their spikes. Some of them were cocky though, thinking that just coz they were older, they'd b the best. Which they were... but their attitude pisses me off... eventhough i don't show that im pissed coz if i did stuff would happen. hahaha. So tired, my back hurts, so do my arms, and my right pinky, and my legs. It's like working out, oh the soreness. pinky hurts mainly coz i played table tennis most of the time. haha. Thts not suppose to happen... Was so dehydrated i drank a bottle of water in 2 minutes.
Wht else do i haf to say... a policeman came to my house today during my lunch break. That was scary. Said someone from my house called 911 in the morning, which didn't happen. My phone is dead also. Can't get dial tone, which means neone who calls also won't b able to get to us. There's just this static on the phone. (For one particular reader, Samara will come out of the phone and attack u! mwahahahaz!). Yeah.. so i'm done. Need to do my CIVICS hmwk... haha. Finally finished careers... now onto civics... which has more hmwk. nooo.... the pain.
"Live life now, you'll have your chance to die eventually"
Saturday, April 16, 2005
'oi...
ohayo! however u spell it! c! i use other languages for the greater good. not like ppl who use "baka" and along with other stuff... shame on u ppl! i should make a list of things that piss me off. but too lazy... haha.
so newayz, yah, i'm posting today coz if i post tomorrow, i'm afraid the post will b LOOONG, and will b some repeats... yaw. So exams... mhmm... had my history exam... horrible! didn't even finish it... (ppl r shaking their heads rite now... haha... shameful), careers were just school work... coz we had to do something at that time slot... so the teacher says. Then english today! which went... pretty well.
After english exam, went home to eat lunch. Then headed out to friend's place to play some naruto and pot! yah! kenneth beat me once, i beat him twice...ish. he's blaming me for losing against tezuka and echizen in pot. like it's my fault he got in the way of the ball when i hit it... like 5 times... hahaha. Even the other players hit him, not my fault! i had to jog all the way to his house, then bak to my place, eat, then bus to church for rehearsals. but noooo.... the bus didn't turn at steeles... it kept going! so i had to walk all the way to warden! i was already late! or so i thought... (ppl were also late, i was actually second one there... mwahahz).
wow... been a half an hour since i started typing... time is so wrong. sooooooo... yah... fancy meeting u here. nice to c that ur reading the blog... hope u enjoyed reading boring facts. bye bye now... tired. need sleep. need to figure out wht to buy for a certain person's birthday. last minute shopping.
so newayz, yah, i'm posting today coz if i post tomorrow, i'm afraid the post will b LOOONG, and will b some repeats... yaw. So exams... mhmm... had my history exam... horrible! didn't even finish it... (ppl r shaking their heads rite now... haha... shameful), careers were just school work... coz we had to do something at that time slot... so the teacher says. Then english today! which went... pretty well.
After english exam, went home to eat lunch. Then headed out to friend's place to play some naruto and pot! yah! kenneth beat me once, i beat him twice...ish. he's blaming me for losing against tezuka and echizen in pot. like it's my fault he got in the way of the ball when i hit it... like 5 times... hahaha. Even the other players hit him, not my fault! i had to jog all the way to his house, then bak to my place, eat, then bus to church for rehearsals. but noooo.... the bus didn't turn at steeles... it kept going! so i had to walk all the way to warden! i was already late! or so i thought... (ppl were also late, i was actually second one there... mwahahz).
wow... been a half an hour since i started typing... time is so wrong. sooooooo... yah... fancy meeting u here. nice to c that ur reading the blog... hope u enjoyed reading boring facts. bye bye now... tired. need sleep. need to figure out wht to buy for a certain person's birthday. last minute shopping.
"Why reach for the stars one step at a time when you can fly there"
Monday, April 11, 2005
Return of the Jedi... I mean Whats With...
"Whats With Indigo...It's LiKe CAllIng A SToRE "RED"... We WAnt TO Buy BoOkS Not Learn THe DifferEnt Colors..."
'ey...2
'oi! me again... pretty sick of seeing only me posting here... it's not visually appealing to this blog, and i dunt want this blog to b trashed coz no one's doing anything in it. i'm not gonna post again until someone else posts something. which means i won't b posting in about a week... since i dunt think neone would post netime soon according to the information implied by this past week...
then again... i keep telling ppl to stop assuming things... so i won't assume that no one won't post this week. hope some ppl prove me right in not assuming this...
ok! lost my train of thought, been on this for a couple of minutes/hours now... bye bye
then again... i keep telling ppl to stop assuming things... so i won't assume that no one won't post this week. hope some ppl prove me right in not assuming this...
ok! lost my train of thought, been on this for a couple of minutes/hours now... bye bye
"It's not the words, but the meaning behind them that counts"
Sunday, April 10, 2005
to...
'ey... yah... some time no post. can't really say long time coz compared to the others, this wasn't really a long time. 'cept for UU which had a draft... but no one can c that. yay... so i'm finally done my careers portfolio thing and presented it to the teacher! so nerve-wrecking. phew! minutes seemed like... more minutes... just a horrible experiance. I am so not gonna do well on any job interviews if i get them. haha.
Samurai Champoo download was done on friday... haha yay. watched like 10 episodes that day... then today i watched about another 10.. i think it was 11. oh well. anime is pretty funny, haha. -sighz- action comedy... just like naruto. 'cept naruto's ninja... Samurai Champoo... name speaks for itself. speaking of which the new opening and ending's so kool! eventhough i forgot wht it was... watched it with matthew haha. he came to do hmwk... watched naruto and gsd, then went home at 6. came bak with his mom since he got in trouble for not telling his mom where he was. mom wanted to comfirm he was here doing hmwk... which he was... just that majority of the time was spent watching naruto's 45 minutes special! or... 1 hour... but fansubs r COMMERCIAL FREE! horrray for commercial free shows! not trying to sell kids stuff subliminally... if that's a word. newayz, that event scared me, thought i was gonna get scolded by his mother or something. scary stuff.
Still addicted to the beck OST's! yah!!! hahaha... must learn how to play guitar... which i will! in september! yay!!! doing electric on an acoustic! wooot! so lame...
arg, done! -coughs- UU's b-day in a week + one day, remember to say happy birthday! -coughs-
Samurai Champoo download was done on friday... haha yay. watched like 10 episodes that day... then today i watched about another 10.. i think it was 11. oh well. anime is pretty funny, haha. -sighz- action comedy... just like naruto. 'cept naruto's ninja... Samurai Champoo... name speaks for itself. speaking of which the new opening and ending's so kool! eventhough i forgot wht it was... watched it with matthew haha. he came to do hmwk... watched naruto and gsd, then went home at 6. came bak with his mom since he got in trouble for not telling his mom where he was. mom wanted to comfirm he was here doing hmwk... which he was... just that majority of the time was spent watching naruto's 45 minutes special! or... 1 hour... but fansubs r COMMERCIAL FREE! horrray for commercial free shows! not trying to sell kids stuff subliminally... if that's a word. newayz, that event scared me, thought i was gonna get scolded by his mother or something. scary stuff.
Still addicted to the beck OST's! yah!!! hahaha... must learn how to play guitar... which i will! in september! yay!!! doing electric on an acoustic! wooot! so lame...
arg, done! -coughs- UU's b-day in a week + one day, remember to say happy birthday! -coughs-
"It's the the words, but the meaning behind it that counts"
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
I...
to avoid any more false assumptions... coz there were a lot... by the same person! i dunt know how one person can have so many assumptions about what happend to me in this one blog (not post). Amazing...
Anywayz, yah... have history homework to do, careers portfolio to finish, science questions to do.... -sighz-. I'd just like to take the opportunity to say there are better things in life than "money." It's weird when i say it coz i'm very greedy when it comes to money, but seriously... life isn't all about money. Life may run on it... but what's money when u got no one to share it with? lol... I'm just bored coz i need a rest from history.
Let's touch on some random topic... gossip? if u really want to know, don't hear it from one source... don't have a bias source either. And if u think and unbiased source sux, then go research it urself. Don't make comments on things u don't know anything about, hearing about it is much different from experiancing it. So if u think u kno it all, ask urself if u experanced it urself. If u did, then yay for u. But if u didn't, just don't say anything at all... Plz note my profile... (masters in hypocracy). I'm trying to change... trying not to b like those ppl who piss me off... or i now find things that piss me off about ppl and i try not to b like them. Such as thinking that i know it all... coz i really don't. And i'll try to not pretend i know everything... also trying to change other things but i'm not that bored so i'll leave that to another day... i say try coz i have hmwk to do and really busy doing other stuff. haaaaaa... bored. What a boring post. It was a beautiful day today. Some person keeps calling me fat.
Ok, random stuff is over now, plz return to whtever u were doing b4 reading this. thank u.
Anywayz, yah... have history homework to do, careers portfolio to finish, science questions to do.... -sighz-. I'd just like to take the opportunity to say there are better things in life than "money." It's weird when i say it coz i'm very greedy when it comes to money, but seriously... life isn't all about money. Life may run on it... but what's money when u got no one to share it with? lol... I'm just bored coz i need a rest from history.
Let's touch on some random topic... gossip? if u really want to know, don't hear it from one source... don't have a bias source either. And if u think and unbiased source sux, then go research it urself. Don't make comments on things u don't know anything about, hearing about it is much different from experiancing it. So if u think u kno it all, ask urself if u experanced it urself. If u did, then yay for u. But if u didn't, just don't say anything at all... Plz note my profile... (masters in hypocracy). I'm trying to change... trying not to b like those ppl who piss me off... or i now find things that piss me off about ppl and i try not to b like them. Such as thinking that i know it all... coz i really don't. And i'll try to not pretend i know everything... also trying to change other things but i'm not that bored so i'll leave that to another day... i say try coz i have hmwk to do and really busy doing other stuff. haaaaaa... bored. What a boring post. It was a beautiful day today. Some person keeps calling me fat.
Ok, random stuff is over now, plz return to whtever u were doing b4 reading this. thank u.
"It's not the words, but the meaning behind them that counts"
Monday, April 04, 2005
To the "employees"....
This was what I wanted to address on my last post when I went out of ideas.... Criticism that the employees worked harder than the boss and the king is weak garbage... blah, blah, blah. Of course the boss isn't around as much, they worked hard to get started, and are working hard to keep going and making sure that other people keep going. You think your all that because you have the most posts..... I STILL HAVE THE MOST WORDS SAID..... So its a normal week, with nothing new. Poor S.S..... I can't believe he never even heard of Beck, or even watched it. I mean, common.... You talk to know more anime watchers than me. I finished watching Samurai Champloo..... I don't know if I already posted about it, but if you like anime, it is definitely a series to watch. I think I already posted about this.... Maybe.... Bit slow today... Addressing things posted many posts ago and repeating myself.
There is a reason for the title of this post. I would like to note that if you want to post pictures up, use picas or something so that it puts a thumbnail of the picture on the post and links it to a large version. Can you do that guys? I'm sure its not that hard (cough) M&M (cough) since the on that's shown seems much larger than the one that its linked to... But I also want to know where you linked the original to so that I can use it for a background. The current program I use to post limits the size of the real picture.
I would also like to comment on a member's current state of leaving homework till after its due and getting other people to print it out and never actually mentioning anything about picking it up. This individual know who he is and all I can say is that they need to get their damn homework.
In closing... Its a good start for the first week of the month, people are actually posting (though some are cheating), long term large scale projects are starting to draw near for me and I still didn't start them, and the village idiot tries to strike, but ends up tripping again. All in all, a typical day in the asylum.
There is a reason for the title of this post. I would like to note that if you want to post pictures up, use picas or something so that it puts a thumbnail of the picture on the post and links it to a large version. Can you do that guys? I'm sure its not that hard (cough) M&M (cough) since the on that's shown seems much larger than the one that its linked to... But I also want to know where you linked the original to so that I can use it for a background. The current program I use to post limits the size of the real picture.
I would also like to comment on a member's current state of leaving homework till after its due and getting other people to print it out and never actually mentioning anything about picking it up. This individual know who he is and all I can say is that they need to get their damn homework.
In closing... Its a good start for the first week of the month, people are actually posting (though some are cheating), long term large scale projects are starting to draw near for me and I still didn't start them, and the village idiot tries to strike, but ends up tripping again. All in all, a typical day in the asylum.
Back...
Yes.. as you guys are aware.. i havnt been posting much.. y? Well i did write up this 4 page post, and when i tried to post there was an error and i had to type it all over again.. did the same thing a couple of times.. each post shorter than the one be4.. finally i give up -__- and saved as a draft..
Well im pretty busy this weak.. all hmwk no playing time =[...
god i luv photoshop..
this for my civics:
and i modified it form this:
not sure how to pot images.. do u upload or put html code or [img] crap?
oh this is teh title i did for my civics.. looks pretty nice. wondering if its good for our new banner..
created this from scratch forgot how to do it-_- was experimenting..
enjoy.. hope to post soon..
Well im pretty busy this weak.. all hmwk no playing time =[...
god i luv photoshop..
this for my civics:
and i modified it form this:
not sure how to pot images.. do u upload or put html code or [img] crap?
oh this is teh title i did for my civics.. looks pretty nice. wondering if its good for our new banner..
created this from scratch forgot how to do it-_- was experimenting..
enjoy.. hope to post soon..
Beck! haha
I put actual titles when i want to, and this time i want to. I only put the first word of my most recent blogs when i can't think of a title, which usually means it's just a regular, reporting my day post. Part of the unwritten book of rules! check at ur own discretion. anywayz! Beck OSTs(Original Sound Track for those who don't know) finally came out! YAY!! lol. I was waiting for it for such a long time! It's an anime based on music so bak then i could only imagine how kool the OSTs would be! Anwayz... yah, burned some of the songs i downloaded, so kooool. Roughly, the anime is about a group of kids... well not young enough to b kids, but u kno wht i'm getting at... that form a band named Beck! I won't go into details coz I might b wrong about some stuff and ppl who really like the anime reading this might hate me for saying something wrong. So the band does lives and the group grows musically etc... Thank u Jacky for introducing me to the anime. haha. I don't read the manga... coz wht would b the point of reading it if it's a musical...anime... ??? such weird ppl, oh well. Japanese ppl attempting to sing in english is always funny to listen to so =P
This anime is also part of the reason why i chose to take beginners guitar in gr.11! haha. See how much anime affects my life? psh... and adults tell ppl not to watch anime.. or t.v. well... they're rite... but... i lost my train of thought. errm... so confusing... so tired... OH YAH! Today was such a good day! Sunny, but very windy!!! did not like the wind! destroyed my gel! well cya.
P.S. how come i can't c UU's post? It's on the dashboard... but i can't c it. maybe it's just me ><
This anime is also part of the reason why i chose to take beginners guitar in gr.11! haha. See how much anime affects my life? psh... and adults tell ppl not to watch anime.. or t.v. well... they're rite... but... i lost my train of thought. errm... so confusing... so tired... OH YAH! Today was such a good day! Sunny, but very windy!!! did not like the wind! destroyed my gel! well cya.
P.S. how come i can't c UU's post? It's on the dashboard... but i can't c it. maybe it's just me ><
"It's not the words, but the meaning behind them that counts"
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Posting troubles...
haven't posted in a while...
last thing i remember was *ugh* ~ shakes ~ microsoft and all it's problems... all the time wasted... bad memories... i have more to say but not really in the mood...
my attempt at cheating a post... to say i did but actually didn't...
last thing i remember was *ugh* ~ shakes ~ microsoft and all it's problems... all the time wasted... bad memories... i have more to say but not really in the mood...
my attempt at cheating a post... to say i did but actually didn't...
So...
AHHH! I HATE THIS BLOG! I posted, then it said error, and i press bak, and EVERYTHING'S GONE! it was so long too! WHATS WRONG WITH THIS SITE! this better not b microsoft or their company will b on my DEATH LIST! I know that the first word of my last post is "syu(u)suke" but it's not a real post to me!. part of the unwritten book of rules! go check! u can't coz it's unwritten! mwahahahaz.
so yah, trying to remember everything i typed b4... so hard. Why would it snow in April?? That's just insane! u know what else is insane? Gmail! having trouble just using one percent of the storage space given to me b4... but now it's growing? ahhh! maybei need spam... that can at least get me up to 2%... haha. Saturday was boring... because of the horrible weather. woke up... then took an afternoon map. haha. Scared the heck out of a person yester...this morning. SO SORRY! felt so bad... not as bad as early in the morning but still... haha. Never gonna do that again... that wasn't even my good picture... wht a waste of a picture, lol.
You know wht's hard? writing a sonnet in one day! agh.. hate re telling u ppl about this, so hard to do this again. but newayz yah. my teacher's kool, he said we can "try" our hand at it, which means it doesn't have to b good! I can just type gibberish in the beginning 9 syllables and a rhyming word at the tenth. For example:
He goes sun brocolli trees sky in fly
Pluto garbage light food flashlight watch guy
Picture in her bear flower jar sound pray
Zoom! paper plan party like John lay
and etc... don't wanna go on coz i already wrote everything once, i'm not writing everything again! yah... got literary devices there too! haha... but it has to b on a theme... so i can't write that. I have to do this coz we're reading Romeo and Juliet... why can't it b Juliet and Romeo? Isn't it ladies first? Alphabetically J is before R, so Shakespear iz WRONG!
yah... I have rehearsals almost every saturday night now coz i need to sing at this coffee house thing for my fellowship at church on May 13. May 13 is a FRIDAY! so unlucky... i'll prolly break some glass windows that day. I'm suppose to encourage ppl to go... but i don't think anyone here reading this would go newayz. Oh well... I tried! Go... have fun... free food, what can b better? Just bring ear plugs so my voice doesn't make u deaf. haha... safety first! yah... didn't tell u where my church was coz... as i said b4... dunt think neone would come... lol. If u actually do want to go... that's great! just ask me or something... comments r welcomed... only like 5 ppl who read this know my email... to my knowledge... so neh. New month... i need a new quote... not that hard to do... I just have to REMEMBER TO COPY THIS POST! my anger... so pissed off at this site. M&M's is supposedly having trouble clicking publish post, oh well. I better not find out this is microsoft... grr... bye!
so yah, trying to remember everything i typed b4... so hard. Why would it snow in April?? That's just insane! u know what else is insane? Gmail! having trouble just using one percent of the storage space given to me b4... but now it's growing? ahhh! maybei need spam... that can at least get me up to 2%... haha. Saturday was boring... because of the horrible weather. woke up... then took an afternoon map. haha. Scared the heck out of a person yester...this morning. SO SORRY! felt so bad... not as bad as early in the morning but still... haha. Never gonna do that again... that wasn't even my good picture... wht a waste of a picture, lol.
You know wht's hard? writing a sonnet in one day! agh.. hate re telling u ppl about this, so hard to do this again. but newayz yah. my teacher's kool, he said we can "try" our hand at it, which means it doesn't have to b good! I can just type gibberish in the beginning 9 syllables and a rhyming word at the tenth. For example:
He goes sun brocolli trees sky in fly
Pluto garbage light food flashlight watch guy
Picture in her bear flower jar sound pray
Zoom! paper plan party like John lay
and etc... don't wanna go on coz i already wrote everything once, i'm not writing everything again! yah... got literary devices there too! haha... but it has to b on a theme... so i can't write that. I have to do this coz we're reading Romeo and Juliet... why can't it b Juliet and Romeo? Isn't it ladies first? Alphabetically J is before R, so Shakespear iz WRONG!
yah... I have rehearsals almost every saturday night now coz i need to sing at this coffee house thing for my fellowship at church on May 13. May 13 is a FRIDAY! so unlucky... i'll prolly break some glass windows that day. I'm suppose to encourage ppl to go... but i don't think anyone here reading this would go newayz. Oh well... I tried! Go... have fun... free food, what can b better? Just bring ear plugs so my voice doesn't make u deaf. haha... safety first! yah... didn't tell u where my church was coz... as i said b4... dunt think neone would come... lol. If u actually do want to go... that's great! just ask me or something... comments r welcomed... only like 5 ppl who read this know my email... to my knowledge... so neh. New month... i need a new quote... not that hard to do... I just have to REMEMBER TO COPY THIS POST! my anger... so pissed off at this site. M&M's is supposedly having trouble clicking publish post, oh well. I better not find out this is microsoft... grr... bye!
"It's not the words, but the meaning behind them that counts"
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Background change... almost
Bored... locked inside... And achieved new knowledge on how to create brushed aluminum look in photoshop. I'm gonna make the background this since its needs to change.... probably temporarily....
It'll look kinda cool since teh bottom edges will give it a plated look.... armour like....or maybe it won't and it'll be bad.... maybe...
Recording my time....
It's been a while since I was last here. I've been dropping by but some technical difficulties on this site didn't allow me to enter. There was a lot I had originally wanted to say, but as time went by, the words faded from my memory.
I guess I should start off on Q6. It's a team based online quiz that's for prizes. Yesterday (couple hours ago) they ended up sending emails of apology for the long waiting time they had from an overload of people trying to login and answer their questions. I'm sure they're really sorry, but I can't help but wonder what made them think it wouldn't be like this in the first place (stupid Microsoft and Dell and the people working there play solitaire and watching porn)
The next thing that comes to mind also finished a couple hours ago and that's the Multicultural Show at my school. It was great, the crowd was lively, but if could have gone smoother. I'm a member of the stage crew and all things sound are my responsibility. Unfortunately, someone decided to smash a juice box (maybe by accident, but you need some force to do so) on two new mics. They both ended up loosing they're ability to record base so voices sounded hollow and echoed. To make matters worse, we never had time to check if anything wrong had happened to it, and everybody that did any sort of vocals ended up using the very same mics. I felt bad because it was my responsibility to make sure that performers were never limited by the equipment. In the end, I got lucky because nobody seemed to care much about it.... Much....
Anything else.... I'm finishing off watching an anime I've been putting aside lately. It's called Samurai Champloo. I recommend that anime to anybody interested in anime since its very good, and the series is only 26 episodes long and ended recently so you can find the complete series torrent still online.....
Lets see... All the time I'm spending indenting my work will be wasted since the blog doesn't post with the indents on. The sight is also in need of more personalization, maybe an actual background or something.... And a cell shaded picture of the other members so that the people who drop by the asylum can get and "idea" of whose around here.....
I guess I should start off on Q6. It's a team based online quiz that's for prizes. Yesterday (couple hours ago) they ended up sending emails of apology for the long waiting time they had from an overload of people trying to login and answer their questions. I'm sure they're really sorry, but I can't help but wonder what made them think it wouldn't be like this in the first place (stupid Microsoft and Dell and the people working there play solitaire and watching porn)
The next thing that comes to mind also finished a couple hours ago and that's the Multicultural Show at my school. It was great, the crowd was lively, but if could have gone smoother. I'm a member of the stage crew and all things sound are my responsibility. Unfortunately, someone decided to smash a juice box (maybe by accident, but you need some force to do so) on two new mics. They both ended up loosing they're ability to record base so voices sounded hollow and echoed. To make matters worse, we never had time to check if anything wrong had happened to it, and everybody that did any sort of vocals ended up using the very same mics. I felt bad because it was my responsibility to make sure that performers were never limited by the equipment. In the end, I got lucky because nobody seemed to care much about it.... Much....
Anything else.... I'm finishing off watching an anime I've been putting aside lately. It's called Samurai Champloo. I recommend that anime to anybody interested in anime since its very good, and the series is only 26 episodes long and ended recently so you can find the complete series torrent still online.....
Lets see... All the time I'm spending indenting my work will be wasted since the blog doesn't post with the indents on. The sight is also in need of more personalization, maybe an actual background or something.... And a cell shaded picture of the other members so that the people who drop by the asylum can get and "idea" of whose around here.....
Jealousy is the strongest passion humans have
Friday, April 01, 2005
ahhh....
so hey, yah... looks like i'm the only one posting so far... maybe it's because i'm a loser... doesn't matter, i didn't start this blog newayz. the "employees" are working harder than the boss... like alwayz, just like how the king sends out his soldiers to protect him instead of going out himself. Sure the king is important... but it's also coz the KING IS WEAK! yah so... the others prolly haf some excuse saying y they couldn't... they alwayz do...
today was horrible... just...horrible. First I slept in and was late for class... just like last year... i wonder if it was the same date too, i'm sure it wasn't. But newayz, yah, i woke up at 9 30 coz it was a PA day for non-highschoolers which meant my sister didn't wake up which means she didn't turn on the tv or make noise, which meant nothing was there to wake me up. I now have to start a new system of alarm clocks where i put one alarm clock near my bed to wake me the first time so at least i won't have deep dreams. Then i have to put another alarm clock FAAAAAAAR away from me that will ring 5-10 minutes later so I'll have to actually get up to turn it off. Hopefully i won't fall down and go bak to sleep. Yah... it was the same last year too, i remember when I had geography and.... ok... that's not important information. My teacher was surprised to c me late though.... so was the entire class but that's not the point. The point is IT WAS A SUNNY DAY... in the morning... not afternoon/afterschool coz that's when the clouds were there. I wanna have this enormous junk food...buffet thing... ahhh! everyday afterschool i'm hungry! I would go out and buy food by myself but firstly, there wouldn't b much food an individual with no job can buy. Secondly, not fun to eat by urself...
Had to walk over to UU's house to borrow his buchan b since i lost mine the DAY I RECEIVED IT! I remember it too... we were all walking somewhere... i forgot, along birchmount when I suddenly looked in my envelope and discovered that my buchan b was GONE! and yes, there was a buchan b in my envelope coz i checked in the auditorium when i got it! well anywayz, i borrowed it from UU so I can use it for my careers portfolio. It was a tiring walk... and run (not jog, i mean RUN) to his house... and it was tiring walking bak... -sighz- and I say borrow... not steal... i'll return it the day I go bak to his house and play NARUTO! or POT... or budokai 3... not in capitals coz i'm mainly there for naruto and prince of tennis, haha. not saying i'm using him... it's just that none of us have a ps2 with mod chip. sorry UU!
Yes... i'm tired... i'm sick... (part of my reason y i slept in... if i didn't i'd b more sick than i am now). Didn't know that there would b such a big line up for lates... haha. When i got to school, there was a line up... this girl told me to go to the bak and line up... it was like grocery shopping! although i never lined up buying groceries... yah... Well i'm guess ur all tired of reading, so i'll stop typing now. Bye!
today was horrible... just...horrible. First I slept in and was late for class... just like last year... i wonder if it was the same date too, i'm sure it wasn't. But newayz, yah, i woke up at 9 30 coz it was a PA day for non-highschoolers which meant my sister didn't wake up which means she didn't turn on the tv or make noise, which meant nothing was there to wake me up. I now have to start a new system of alarm clocks where i put one alarm clock near my bed to wake me the first time so at least i won't have deep dreams. Then i have to put another alarm clock FAAAAAAAR away from me that will ring 5-10 minutes later so I'll have to actually get up to turn it off. Hopefully i won't fall down and go bak to sleep. Yah... it was the same last year too, i remember when I had geography and.... ok... that's not important information. My teacher was surprised to c me late though.... so was the entire class but that's not the point. The point is IT WAS A SUNNY DAY... in the morning... not afternoon/afterschool coz that's when the clouds were there. I wanna have this enormous junk food...buffet thing... ahhh! everyday afterschool i'm hungry! I would go out and buy food by myself but firstly, there wouldn't b much food an individual with no job can buy. Secondly, not fun to eat by urself...
Had to walk over to UU's house to borrow his buchan b since i lost mine the DAY I RECEIVED IT! I remember it too... we were all walking somewhere... i forgot, along birchmount when I suddenly looked in my envelope and discovered that my buchan b was GONE! and yes, there was a buchan b in my envelope coz i checked in the auditorium when i got it! well anywayz, i borrowed it from UU so I can use it for my careers portfolio. It was a tiring walk... and run (not jog, i mean RUN) to his house... and it was tiring walking bak... -sighz- and I say borrow... not steal... i'll return it the day I go bak to his house and play NARUTO! or POT... or budokai 3... not in capitals coz i'm mainly there for naruto and prince of tennis, haha. not saying i'm using him... it's just that none of us have a ps2 with mod chip. sorry UU!
Yes... i'm tired... i'm sick... (part of my reason y i slept in... if i didn't i'd b more sick than i am now). Didn't know that there would b such a big line up for lates... haha. When i got to school, there was a line up... this girl told me to go to the bak and line up... it was like grocery shopping! although i never lined up buying groceries... yah... Well i'm guess ur all tired of reading, so i'll stop typing now. Bye!
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Thursday, March 31, 2005
hi...
ahhh! wht an awful night it's been! the day time was somewhat kool... rained... then it became sunny. It was a beautiful sight... to c the yellow sunlight shine across/through my window and onto the wall. I wanted to take a picture of it... but too lazy.
Anywayz, onto the real reason for this post... i cannot emphesize how much i DESPISE this phrase "There was an error contacting the database. Please try again." plz... DARN U Q6! For those who don't know what that is... i dunt haf time to explain, and there's also the part where my explanations are either incorrect or... yah... For msn users that have the "new" beta version, better if u use hotmail, but on the left side of the msn window thingy at the bottom left says Q6 in blue with the 6 subscripted and on the top.... or whtever. yah... i've been trying to get on the webpage for 2 hours, prolly half an hour trying to log in, and another half trying to send the answer. 3 HOURS! don't worry, in that time, i ate dinner, watched tennis, and did my hmwk. AH! i am not looking forward to next week when i have to this again... darn servers busy... darn microsoft... I can't say more or else UU and Drakonen will have nothing to vent about with UU's Microsofts lame excuses... n yah... ok. I'll save the rest of the hatred for the others to express to u, the viewers and readers. bye bye!
Anywayz, onto the real reason for this post... i cannot emphesize how much i DESPISE this phrase "There was an error contacting the database. Please try again." plz... DARN U Q6! For those who don't know what that is... i dunt haf time to explain, and there's also the part where my explanations are either incorrect or... yah... For msn users that have the "new" beta version, better if u use hotmail, but on the left side of the msn window thingy at the bottom left says Q6 in blue with the 6 subscripted and on the top.... or whtever. yah... i've been trying to get on the webpage for 2 hours, prolly half an hour trying to log in, and another half trying to send the answer. 3 HOURS! don't worry, in that time, i ate dinner, watched tennis, and did my hmwk. AH! i am not looking forward to next week when i have to this again... darn servers busy... darn microsoft... I can't say more or else UU and Drakonen will have nothing to vent about with UU's Microsofts lame excuses... n yah... ok. I'll save the rest of the hatred for the others to express to u, the viewers and readers. bye bye!
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Hoi...
hi hi! yes... another day... don't usually do regular posts anymore but oh well... i'm too lazy to do hmwk. so yah, finally moved my computer bak up in my room... but no point on saying nething since no one came over to c where my computer was during it was downstairs. haha. newayz, tired from moving everything that i moved down b4, bak up. Mostly it's coz i'm SICK! so many ppl i kno r sick now... such a shame. I couldn't sleep last night... darn runny nose. I'd b sleeping and awake randomly. Tried sleeping at 11 30, but was still awake at 12 30, i know this because i taped the tennis match. prolly also woke up around 3 or 4, then slept, woke up again when my aunt and uncle were leaving to go bak to HK at around 6 30. Yes... i don't know why they came bak, but i'll ask eventually. Yah.. i prolly gained a few pounds when they were here, so much food...
not much else to say but i think there's some kind of virus on my computer, haha.
anywayz, g2g, i haf a virus to catch. dum dum dum... it's not funny...
not much else to say but i think there's some kind of virus on my computer, haha.
anywayz, g2g, i haf a virus to catch. dum dum dum... it's not funny...
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Back To School... AGAIN...
Grass is green... waking up at 7: 45 sucks... compared to my normal 10:00 wake up for the majority of the break... and sleeping past midnight yesterday didn't help... and sources tell me that m&m isn't able to actually use the *post* button for blogger ( sources meaning him )... unno why but i'm not the expert so...
"What's With Toilet Paper... Why Do THey MaKe It White? Things STand OUT On White..."
very short post... too bad... i need my sleep...
"What's With Toilet Paper... Why Do THey MaKe It White? Things STand OUT On White..."
very short post... too bad... i need my sleep...
I...
Hoi hoi! whtsup ppl? yay... ppl r posting now... just have to wait for m&m's to post... i think he forgot about us. no posts from him for a LONG time! i'd say that no one misses him, but that would just get him to not post even longer... but can't say we miss him either since it seems like he doesn't miss or remember us!
so yah... march break is over... wednesday, friday, and sunday i coulda went over to UU's house but noooo... so sad... Yah, wednesday was boring, friday i did something in the morning and early afternoon but nothing in the late afternoon, Sunday had something to do in morning and early afternoon but nothing in the late afternoon as well. Monday was the most boring since i was planning to go to UU's house that day but he didn't finish his hmwk... -twitches eyes- so i stayed in the BASEMENT ALL DAY DOING NOTHING!!! yah... i feel the worst for drakonen... since that would b his whole week...
newayz! school continues and i begins with me WAKING UP LATE! it was 8 50 when i woke up again... (woke up b4 coz alarm clock started but went bak to sleep after i turned it off), i didn't get a chance to eat or drink. it was a terrible morning... just... terrible. I had a horrible stomach ache at night, as in it was like the acids were burning through my stomach (not anything else u nasty minded ppl!) horrible... i couldn't even stand up straight coz it was hurting so bad. I'm ok now... but i NEVER want to repeat that pain again.
yah... so i'm done... i have hmwk... but i'll prolly do it after dinner or something... like i alwayz do. so not used to going to school... I also need to cut my own hair again... it's getting annoying.
so yah... march break is over... wednesday, friday, and sunday i coulda went over to UU's house but noooo... so sad... Yah, wednesday was boring, friday i did something in the morning and early afternoon but nothing in the late afternoon, Sunday had something to do in morning and early afternoon but nothing in the late afternoon as well. Monday was the most boring since i was planning to go to UU's house that day but he didn't finish his hmwk... -twitches eyes- so i stayed in the BASEMENT ALL DAY DOING NOTHING!!! yah... i feel the worst for drakonen... since that would b his whole week...
newayz! school continues and i begins with me WAKING UP LATE! it was 8 50 when i woke up again... (woke up b4 coz alarm clock started but went bak to sleep after i turned it off), i didn't get a chance to eat or drink. it was a terrible morning... just... terrible. I had a horrible stomach ache at night, as in it was like the acids were burning through my stomach (not anything else u nasty minded ppl!) horrible... i couldn't even stand up straight coz it was hurting so bad. I'm ok now... but i NEVER want to repeat that pain again.
yah... so i'm done... i have hmwk... but i'll prolly do it after dinner or something... like i alwayz do. so not used to going to school... I also need to cut my own hair again... it's getting annoying.
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Monday, March 28, 2005
t'has come and gone...i was talking about winter!~!!
for me march break was between both S.S and Drakonen's... it wasn't exactly dull... but not exactly fun-filled throughout... it went something like this... sleep, did stuff, more sleep, wakes up and does something else... etc... i doubt march break was actually meant for things to be accomplished... note the name march break meant to say we told you so... when all the final projects worth 359700389457% of your marks all begin right after this... ( i know that number isn't possible ... an advance warning meant to stop people from commenting on it). well at least next week is a 4 day week... which everyone ELSE has... dang nothing to say that would make our break anywhere near better than the one the markham people had as did everyone else who doesn't live here... ya that was a stupid decision on their part... well still got *some* hmwk to do... "homework is also known as homework the day before its due work... so thats all for me... no what's with for today...
Wasted
This entire week was wasted.... and now its over.... (sigh).... I don't know what to say, other than the obvious.... We never got our intended work done. Nothing.... everything from Hapkido to the ours of postponed gaming. Nothing...... I've been so bored that I took the time to make the two pictures of myself. What a waste of my time. I didn't even start the only piece of homework i had which was reading a 10 pages of a novel and answering questions on it. I didn't even look at my ISU work for English. I can't help but be mad at myself. I didn't even get the amount of sleep I wanted, since I started to procrastinate on when i would go to sleep, finally dozing off at around 2am and waking up at 12pm on the same day. Atleast S.S got some time to watch a movie and have fun.... how I envy the fun...... I'll just cry myself to sleep now.... been saying it... never actually did it.... maybe I'll make up the lack of work in school.... I know I will.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
'ey....
i just thought up of a kool idea for my titles! i should put the first word of my most recent post as my title! haha! i know it sux... but u dunt haf to critisize me. so yah, yesterday was kinda fun i guess. Went to a good friday service at my church, then went to a buffet with my fellowship and yah... that's about all for yesterday. Today was fun too, i was suppose to get my blood tested... =S but it was closed so i didn't. oh well... was looking forward to get the needle part over with so i dunt hafta think about it for another... 2years? so since it was closed, we went to mall, ate breakfast, walked around, and that's that. afternoon, i went out to fairview to watch ring 2 with a couple of cool and funny ppl. i won't say who coz ppl reading this pass judgement no matter what they say. they'll prolly figure out who it was but at least ppl who don't know me don't know who it is. lol! let alone who i am... so yah, watching the movie was more funny than horrific. now, i'm not talking about THE movie, i'm talking about ME watching the movie. it wouldn't matter wht horror movie it'd b, just as long as those two r there watching too, it's funny. =P hahaha...
yah, after we walked around, found many things that i wanted to buy but couldn't or wouldn't coz it either cost too much or i had second thoughts. found apocolyptica or whtever groups CD, haha, wanted to buy that but needed a second opinion *drakonen*. i also found other cd's but that doesn't concern u ppl. NO IT'S NOT PORN! dirty minded kids... wht has the world become...
newayz, also found dart and dart boards like uu has! haha, also a real dart board and darts which cost the same amount but either way i didn't haf enough money, arg. i also don't haf ne cards no more coz it got wet in the rain during summer when i was at taiwan... nooo! wanted to buy cards also but my budget is LOW! from the spending that took place... the event that drakonen and i will never mention coz it was that bad... poor planning.
anywayz... i'm done here.. I GOTTA DO HMWK! NOOOO! WHT IS THIS? IT'S NOT RITE DOING HMWK DURING MARCH BREAK! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. tdsb... any non-tdsb students get 13 dayz of march break... although not in a row, but it is longer by two dayz because of their weekend. they're trying to trick u into believing that tdsb march break is good... but it really isn't... it really isn't... -shakes head- newayz, gotta whine about doing my hmwk, bye!
yah, after we walked around, found many things that i wanted to buy but couldn't or wouldn't coz it either cost too much or i had second thoughts. found apocolyptica or whtever groups CD, haha, wanted to buy that but needed a second opinion *drakonen*. i also found other cd's but that doesn't concern u ppl. NO IT'S NOT PORN! dirty minded kids... wht has the world become...
newayz, also found dart and dart boards like uu has! haha, also a real dart board and darts which cost the same amount but either way i didn't haf enough money, arg. i also don't haf ne cards no more coz it got wet in the rain during summer when i was at taiwan... nooo! wanted to buy cards also but my budget is LOW! from the spending that took place... the event that drakonen and i will never mention coz it was that bad... poor planning.
anywayz... i'm done here.. I GOTTA DO HMWK! NOOOO! WHT IS THIS? IT'S NOT RITE DOING HMWK DURING MARCH BREAK! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. tdsb... any non-tdsb students get 13 dayz of march break... although not in a row, but it is longer by two dayz because of their weekend. they're trying to trick u into believing that tdsb march break is good... but it really isn't... it really isn't... -shakes head- newayz, gotta whine about doing my hmwk, bye!
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Friday, March 25, 2005
blogging
'ey... so yah... march break. didn't really get as much sleep as intended but oh well, all in good fun. Went to TC for Monday and Tuesday (teens conference... christian thing! =D) so yah, tired from that, but it was fun! n... yah... wednesday stayed home for most of the day, yesterday went to doctors appointment for check-up and went to uu's place to play naruto, pot, and budokai 3! coulda fit 15 more minutes in the beginning but piano teacher was scary...lol. yaw, now it's good friday and i need to sleep coz i hafta go to church tomorrow, bye!
note to self: use super kamahamaha on kid buu to unlock uub and gogeta
sorry for the note, had no way else to remember
note to self: use super kamahamaha on kid buu to unlock uub and gogeta
sorry for the note, had no way else to remember
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
we now return to the regular program...
yar everyone has started to post again ( cept for m&m... unno where HE went... ) well lets see what is there to talk about... well basicly between ss and drakonen... or d? no... drakonen... ( at least 5 letters longer than everyone else...) they covered some of the break... other days have been wasted staying home attempting to do homework + staying home... realized that the march break schedule is stupid... almost 1/3 of the days are limited to home and home due to the closure of everything for easter holiday... smart... can't do these 8 paragraph long posts like drakonen... already the time i started and the time now is like 2 hours...
"What's With "Eat my Dust!"... BasiCly Saying... Look here, I'm DiRTy...
"What's With "Eat my Dust!"... BasiCly Saying... Look here, I'm DiRTy...
Stuck in 2D
It's been a while since I posted.... I think about two weeks. My excuse... Laziness and procrastination. So I decided to spend time recapping on what's been happening since the last post made Friday. First off.... S.S and I went to visit a "person" that "guilted" S.S into meeting up with her downtown. I decided to go along with S.S It was fun, the "person"was volunteering in a Sports Men trade show and was helping people learn to use a B.B. rifle (we can discuss the ethics of kids learning to use guns on another day). To bad though, turned out that she could have got us into the place for $3 instead of the $8 that we paid. We had also originally wanted to catch a hotdogs stand and heat hot dogs for $1.50, but we couldn't find any and after hours of walking, we just grabbed some pizza that was $1.50 more that in the suburbs.... That's downtown life for yah.
After S.S gave the "person" a so called belated birthday and Christmas present (still argue he has other motives for doing all this), we went to back to Best Buy near our homes to get U.U a PS2 controller. Why, well.... U.U has a modded PS2, and we have two games that we're very fond of that can only be enjoyed with two controllers. U.U had two controllers but left one at another friends house, so we just bought him one. It was worth it, but I still have to explain to my parents how I wasted $30 and didn't bring anything home. S.S lost $25. Thus is my life.... Dragging behind S.S on his adventures of poor spending habits and even worse planning. Learned what not to do down town that day.... (All this was on Saturday)
Now, the next day, Sunday, I went to Pacific Mall early in the morning and dropped $512 on a new digital camera, that's with Tax. It was the best one I could get for that price, and its supposedly better that a lot of more expensive cameras.... (and it really is). After coming home and me and my dad telling my mom that it actually coast $460, (which is true... Since that's about the price before tax). It was nice, except it would take 4.5 hours to charge the batteries, which meant I had to kill time, so off to u house me and S.S went.
So at U.U house, we went down into his basement with the huge TV and the PS2, where we presented the PS2 controller. I ended up ripping the plastic cover off with my own hands instead of waiting for U.U to come with scissors. After that, we loaded up Naruto: Narutimett Hero 2 and for a good 5 hours. After that, U.U's parents managed to get us to stay for dinner since it was getting late. Swiss chalet was good... We stared at each other a lot.... And didn't say much or engage in a long conversation, but the food was good. We even washed our own plates, but I think that might have been considered an insult to U.U's mother.... to late now.
After dinner, we went back down and loaded a Prince of Tennis game and played doubles, loosing every time to the worst people with the best. It's something that we're not very proud of. We we're starting to reach 9:30 when we put Naruto back on for a last time and got a drive home from U.U's dad. They're so nice, I feel bad just coming over to play video games. Maybe we should clean U.U's room for him.
Monday and Tuesday passed by the same way. I experimented with my digital camera in manual mode while I was alone in my empty house with U.U far away and S.S at some conference. No, I didn't take any nasty pictures, just the living room and dining room. I took a picture of myself and made me 2D in Photoshop, it the one at the top of this post. I think its cool, maybe I can do it for the other users here....
So now Wednesday, my entire family is here, and me and S.S are trying to go back to U.U's house for more gaming. Its 12:25 now and I still haven't eaten any breakfast or lunch. I don't have anything else to say but that I'll try and actually post the rest of the days of march break. Oh yeah... We're on March Break... Forgot to mention that.
*The picture ended up looking nothing like me.... so sad.... my mom thought it was S.S at first glance.... my own mother.... so sad... I'm gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.
Friday, March 18, 2005
post7
yar... the blog looked VERY boring since the last blog was done on monday... wow... i didn't wanna post coz i wanted OTHER PPL to post instead of the blog looking like sacrosanct.saint, unknownuser, unknownuser, sacrosanct saint.... so sad.
so yah... MARCH BREAK! yay!.... gonna pass by like it was 2 minutes. went to unknownusers house... played a lot of naruto! lol! we usually kept losing at prince of tennis so yah... it's more fun when u haf 2 controllers which he will soon have... mwahahaz. wht an addictive game...
so tired... and i'm tired of crossing my leg/kneeling on the ground! my computer is on the ground not on the table so i hafta sit down on the floor... for a week now! so good to sit on a chair... -sighz-
can't think of anything rite now so yah, i'll post something up when i think of something. so hungry...
so yah... MARCH BREAK! yay!.... gonna pass by like it was 2 minutes. went to unknownusers house... played a lot of naruto! lol! we usually kept losing at prince of tennis so yah... it's more fun when u haf 2 controllers which he will soon have... mwahahaz. wht an addictive game...
so tired... and i'm tired of crossing my leg/kneeling on the ground! my computer is on the ground not on the table so i hafta sit down on the floor... for a week now! so good to sit on a chair... -sighz-
can't think of anything rite now so yah, i'll post something up when i think of something. so hungry...
"life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Monday, March 14, 2005
Giving us tests... yet they tell us to sleep earlier...
down to my last two tests during this testing maddness...
"What's With GreeN Tea... I Unno but isN'T It SuppOsed To Be GreeN?... "
see i would post longer... but... looks at clock... 10:58... looks at time started... 9: 14... and in that time i typed ONE sentence... note: currently cram-studying...
"What's With GreeN Tea... I Unno but isN'T It SuppOsed To Be GreeN?... "
see i would post longer... but... looks at clock... 10:58... looks at time started... 9: 14... and in that time i typed ONE sentence... note: currently cram-studying...
post6
I feel like i'm alone in this blog... well... drakonen would prolly post one LARGE one so that could take a while...
I haf an overwhelming urge to write a novel and publish it! it'd b a major accomplishment! wanted to do that last summer... but went to Hong Kong so didn't get much chance to do planning n stuff. There's major research involved too... arg... and taking world religion for the book i'm about to write would b a great help! but i didn't take it so now i gotta research stuff on my own time. drakonen would prolly b working out at some YMCA so he won't b helping me out much since he'll b alwayz tired n sore from working out. there's alwayz uu and mm to work with... but who'd wanna do work during the summer? nooooooo.... i'm alone... again. lol. that's one of my dreams that i wanna accomplish soon... become a published writer! woooo! prolly gonna take a while... n i'll prolly b seeing a lot of "rejected" on letters... oh well. A novel written by a... 17 year old in Scarborough (expecting it to take a few years... lol). this is just an idea that came bak to me today when working on my careers hmwk... fields of work. wouldn't hurt to make money off of writing books. it just depends how many ppl buy the books, haha.
yah... so if neone wants to help, comment... i guess...but working with ppl on a book would cause a lot of arguements on ideas... so DARN! NVM! just need help on research coz i hate researching... lol. so time consuming and so much reading.
and yes, i make all the quotes myself, unless some famous intellectual person said the same thing I said and has been published online and in books. But what can i say, great minds think alike.
I haf an overwhelming urge to write a novel and publish it! it'd b a major accomplishment! wanted to do that last summer... but went to Hong Kong so didn't get much chance to do planning n stuff. There's major research involved too... arg... and taking world religion for the book i'm about to write would b a great help! but i didn't take it so now i gotta research stuff on my own time. drakonen would prolly b working out at some YMCA so he won't b helping me out much since he'll b alwayz tired n sore from working out. there's alwayz uu and mm to work with... but who'd wanna do work during the summer? nooooooo.... i'm alone... again. lol. that's one of my dreams that i wanna accomplish soon... become a published writer! woooo! prolly gonna take a while... n i'll prolly b seeing a lot of "rejected" on letters... oh well. A novel written by a... 17 year old in Scarborough (expecting it to take a few years... lol). this is just an idea that came bak to me today when working on my careers hmwk... fields of work. wouldn't hurt to make money off of writing books. it just depends how many ppl buy the books, haha.
yah... so if neone wants to help, comment... i guess...but working with ppl on a book would cause a lot of arguements on ideas... so DARN! NVM! just need help on research coz i hate researching... lol. so time consuming and so much reading.
and yes, i make all the quotes myself, unless some famous intellectual person said the same thing I said and has been published online and in books. But what can i say, great minds think alike.
"Life isn't hard, you're just lazy"
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Drakonen is now a man!
A man has enough problems getting ONE date from a girl... but it has come to my attentions that drakonen, a normal male like all of us ('cept more nerdie) had gotten ONE date... with FIFTEEN GIRLS! now... he may make excuses like "a table mix up" but we all know wht happend. being hit on by 15 girls in one day is not normal. especially when they're all together! newayz, g2g for dinner. bye.
"It's the journey, not the destination"
post5
so yah... yay... it's saturday. get to rest... a lil'. friday was fun eventhough i had to move the computer downstairs by myself. the couch isn't that great to sleep on but it's better than the floor. lol. went to someone's house for guy's night out for my church fellowship. THE GUY IS SOOOOOOOOO RICH! when i say he has a home theater, i MEAN he has a home theater! he has the chairs, the screens, the surround sound... it was beautiful... -sobs-. i dunno y, but whenever i go to someone's house who has a ping pong table, i play, lol. so the majority of the night i played ping pong with ppl. some older, some younger, some adults. it was amazing and tiring! played nfs underground... not 2, but oh well, it was on ps2 n i was bored so i played with someone. I beat them, but that's only coz i play racing games a least twice a week. I mean common'. but oh well, that was fun. dinner there was SO FILLING! we had popeyes, everyone had to pay 7 bux, but i got my 7 bux worth. I think EVERYONE DID. and there were STILL leftovers!
aunt and uncle r living at my house now... but instead of a month it's just a few days. they said they didn't want to disturb my studies... but wht they don't know is i dunt study newayz. oh well, more comfortable with less ppl at my house.
i was tired... but i stayed up 'til 3 in the morning talking to a CERTAIN PERSON WHO DROWNS IN CLICHES! but that was fun... amused me for 3ish hours. had to keep sneaking up and down the house coz i needed to brush my teeth at 2!?!? then had to sneak bak up again to get my retainer coz i forgot to put it on. it was tiring. had to b very silent. i dun usually stay up that late... latest i stayed up b4 yesterday was 2 30 playing diablo II coz i was addicted to that game bak then. telling scary stories... freaking some person out. makes my life worth living... haha. dun look above u... think a spider's comming down, dun want it to fall in ur eyes or start crawling down ur nose.
i'm dun, cya.
aunt and uncle r living at my house now... but instead of a month it's just a few days. they said they didn't want to disturb my studies... but wht they don't know is i dunt study newayz. oh well, more comfortable with less ppl at my house.
i was tired... but i stayed up 'til 3 in the morning talking to a CERTAIN PERSON WHO DROWNS IN CLICHES! but that was fun... amused me for 3ish hours. had to keep sneaking up and down the house coz i needed to brush my teeth at 2!?!? then had to sneak bak up again to get my retainer coz i forgot to put it on. it was tiring. had to b very silent. i dun usually stay up that late... latest i stayed up b4 yesterday was 2 30 playing diablo II coz i was addicted to that game bak then. telling scary stories... freaking some person out. makes my life worth living... haha. dun look above u... think a spider's comming down, dun want it to fall in ur eyes or start crawling down ur nose.
i'm dun, cya.
"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"
Friday, March 11, 2005
Language-disability...
haha everyone here can speak another language... meaning they can do more then count to ten and say a few greeting words... i have a language disability...lol... it's true... i've tried learning cantonese... can i speak it? nope... french? nope... but i can "conjugate" verbs! wow they teach you the most useful things... grammer comes first before speaking... or so they say...
no offense m&m, but hasn't anyone told you to "be yourself"? i unno one of those life lessons...
btw... if you want to change your post... dont repost just edit your old post...
"What's With ReaLity Tv...SinCe When Has ANyOne Ate WorMs FOr BreaKFAst,BeEN STranDed On A Island iN REal Life...Very REality-like..."
no offense m&m, but hasn't anyone told you to "be yourself"? i unno one of those life lessons...
btw... if you want to change your post... dont repost just edit your old post...
"What's With ReaLity Tv...SinCe When Has ANyOne Ate WorMs FOr BreaKFAst,BeEN STranDed On A Island iN REal Life...Very REality-like..."
Noobs...
Stupid M&Ms and his lack of patience with his noobie skillz.... not my fault you suck noob..... Yes, if you haven't noticed by now, it is 12:20 am on a friday morning. I'm gonna present a history presentation in 9 hours by myself, which still is being finished up (taking a break after three hours of work). Ten hours from now, i'll be on the subway heading downtown to a French restaurant as part of a french field trip. I didn't learn a foreign language to swear at people, well maybe, just so that i can do it too both fluent and non fluent frenchies.... well.... I gotta start my summary, and then finish it... Then get to school before 8:30 to get my presentation stuff photocopied and organized....
Thursday, March 10, 2005
languages
When ppl r learning languages, y do they alwayz tend to want to know how to use the "bad" words first? This shows how "bad" ppl really r coz all they want to do is insult each other. u go anywhere, n if u ask "do u know chinese?" they'll most likely go yah. and if u ask them wht they know (ESPECIALLY TEENS/YOUTHS) they go "pok guy!" and most of them dunt even know wht that means. u ask someone if they know tamil, they'll know insulting words too. u go ask anime fans if they know japanesse... they start going "yah u baka!" It's not that i don't like these ppl, i just look down on them. it's good that they're practising other languages, but plz, LEARN GOOD WORDS! putting down ppl... i look down on them. eventhough i am guilty of putting down ppl, i usually do it coz they do it to me FIRST, it's a small joke... and/or at least i dun use foreign languages to make my point. I can go on forever... but i'm afraid that i'll run out of time. so for all u ppl who use foreign languages as a weapon, know that i look down on u. I know that some of u think i'm nothing, so go ahead and use 'em. I can't stop u... I'm just "disappointed" at u. and when I'M disappointed at u... that is just sad... -shakes head-
yaws, aunt n uncle comming tomorrow, gotta sleep in basement. -sighz-
ps. DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!
i dun usually look at drafts, but mm... u can help me move too lol. just afraid u'll freeze to death without a jacket.
all done here...
yaws, aunt n uncle comming tomorrow, gotta sleep in basement. -sighz-
ps. DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!
i dun usually look at drafts, but mm... u can help me move too lol. just afraid u'll freeze to death without a jacket.
all done here...
"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"
Whats With??
This blog.. i cant publish..
i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..
i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]
i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..
i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]
Whats With
This blog.. i cant publish..
i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..
i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]
i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..
i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]
WhAt'S WiTh??
In Ur FaCe U.U!!! lol
Wuts With Google Desktop Search?? They have every site in their database now they want to search ur pc? =]
lol
hahaa S.S I WOULD help u, but u didnt include so i wont. =]
Wuts With Google Desktop Search?? They have every site in their database now they want to search ur pc? =]
lol
hahaa S.S I WOULD help u, but u didnt include so i wont. =]
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
blog express
i didn't wanna put numbers anymore so i made this one special. LOL! Prince of tennis dubbed... horrible... i know... so sad. I made a post on that b4... i didn't watch the whole thing. I stopped when they got off the train... coz it was that bad...
Anywayz! english was fun! we were trying to find pictures in magazines of conformists and non-conformists and we did... but today i kept ripping out thoses pages with fragrance scents! haha! my BAG smells like fragrance! especially my binder! haha... wonder wht'll happen when i open it in class... "whoe! who's wearing perfume?" good... coz they'll blame it on the girls... but it'll b bad when they find out it's from my binder. I did that in the beginning so i could wipe it on ppl and make them smell! haha... i haf weapons now... scary ain't it? -sighz- i'm so sad.
Well.. my aunt and uncle r moving bak to canada... and since they haf no place to stay (they sold their house here b4 they went bak to hong kong coz they thought they'd live there permanently but my uncle found a job here so they're comming bak for the job). NOW I GOTTA MOVE MY COMPUTER BAK DOWN! It's so kool.. coz if u baktrack everything, i think i made a post that said i moved my computer UP! arg... i'm also gonna b sleeping downstairs for at least a month coz my aunt and uncle hafta sleep in my room... can't have them sleep in the basement. (my room's nicer than the basement for ppl who don't know...) AT LEAST I CAN WATCH LATE NIGHT MOVIES! (whoops... did i say that out loud... n no, not porn. u nasty ppl). i should rent a movie ... with surround sound at night... not very good for neighbouring houses (my surround sound ain't as good as drakonen... darn uuuuuuuuu). so yah, now i gotta move all the important stuff downstairs... so that means not much comming to my house anymore n i hafta b on my "best" behavior. -sobs- they're comming this friday... such short notice... gotta move everything tomorrow. i was planning to go over to drakonen's house to get my controller and cd marker thing bak. Or... DRAKONEN COME OVER N HELP! nah... couldn't ask u to do that... nvm. u prolly haf work to do newayz... (psst... unknown... come! lol! wait.. u guys haf hmwk too... darn...).
oh well, cya! this is long enough for me.
Anywayz! english was fun! we were trying to find pictures in magazines of conformists and non-conformists and we did... but today i kept ripping out thoses pages with fragrance scents! haha! my BAG smells like fragrance! especially my binder! haha... wonder wht'll happen when i open it in class... "whoe! who's wearing perfume?" good... coz they'll blame it on the girls... but it'll b bad when they find out it's from my binder. I did that in the beginning so i could wipe it on ppl and make them smell! haha... i haf weapons now... scary ain't it? -sighz- i'm so sad.
Well.. my aunt and uncle r moving bak to canada... and since they haf no place to stay (they sold their house here b4 they went bak to hong kong coz they thought they'd live there permanently but my uncle found a job here so they're comming bak for the job). NOW I GOTTA MOVE MY COMPUTER BAK DOWN! It's so kool.. coz if u baktrack everything, i think i made a post that said i moved my computer UP! arg... i'm also gonna b sleeping downstairs for at least a month coz my aunt and uncle hafta sleep in my room... can't have them sleep in the basement. (my room's nicer than the basement for ppl who don't know...) AT LEAST I CAN WATCH LATE NIGHT MOVIES! (whoops... did i say that out loud... n no, not porn. u nasty ppl). i should rent a movie ... with surround sound at night... not very good for neighbouring houses (my surround sound ain't as good as drakonen... darn uuuuuuuuu). so yah, now i gotta move all the important stuff downstairs... so that means not much comming to my house anymore n i hafta b on my "best" behavior. -sobs- they're comming this friday... such short notice... gotta move everything tomorrow. i was planning to go over to drakonen's house to get my controller and cd marker thing bak. Or... DRAKONEN COME OVER N HELP! nah... couldn't ask u to do that... nvm. u prolly haf work to do newayz... (psst... unknown... come! lol! wait.. u guys haf hmwk too... darn...).
oh well, cya! this is long enough for me.
"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"
Like a Virus it spreads...
currently infected with the north american strain of sleeping sickness... falling asleep in class is not a good thing... especially if the teacher is talking... not a smart thing to do... nope...
Holy Crap... Prince of Tennis (Fan DubbEd)... WHAT WAS THAT???!??... THEY ACTUALLY SHARE THAT GARBAGE!~!!... How can you sit through that whole thing???... what was good about it...umm... the music? all of the music... no *just* the background music... trying to sing the theme song and the ending song? no just stop please... the bad? every single other thing!~!!! leaves scars that will last forever...
Holy Crap... Prince of Tennis (Fan DubbEd)... WHAT WAS THAT???!??... THEY ACTUALLY SHARE THAT GARBAGE!~!!... How can you sit through that whole thing???... what was good about it...umm... the music? all of the music... no *just* the background music... trying to sing the theme song and the ending song? no just stop please... the bad? every single other thing!~!!! leaves scars that will last forever...
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
You know you're getting old when
u know ur getting old when u start taking afternoon naps again at the age of 16? well.. if u dunt normally do it already. maybe by body just isn't strong enough to stay up late everyday (and my late isn't really late... my late can even b other ppl's early). anywayz... i need to re-organize my time so I start sleeping at least at 11. I only started sleeping after 11 after watching Matrix reloaded at night coz it was my first time watching it and i couldn't wait. Then everything just started going downhill from there...
well... some ppl at school get to ski/snow board tomorrow... i woulda too... if i wasn't too lazy in filling out forms and not too poor to hand in the fee lol. also, i dun think going to school at 6 45 and going skiing is a good idea since there may b a chance that someone might just go unconscious while skiing lol. i'd like to c that... a guy's halfway down the hill when suddenly he sleeps and tumbles all the way down taking 5 fellow skiers with him, lol. -sighz- i'm just jealous, ignore that.
I just found out our school actually DIDN'T have philosophy! AHH! oh the teacher said... maybe they do and she was misinformed! but eitherway, i won't pick it just coz the teacher said there wasn't. I stopped listening after she said there wasn't, but i heard something about the teacher not having enough codes or something (example HIF...blah blah blah... yah), and it was part of a leadership course...? dunno, either way it doesn't do much for me since i change philosophy into beginners guitar! lol! might hafta spend money buying a guitar (or renting one... dun c the point in renting though...). but... i can always just bubble in philosophy haha... since i already have a signature for intro to anthropology...etc... and it's in the same box as philosophy... -sighz- so disappointed. need to do hmwk, bye bye.
well... some ppl at school get to ski/snow board tomorrow... i woulda too... if i wasn't too lazy in filling out forms and not too poor to hand in the fee lol. also, i dun think going to school at 6 45 and going skiing is a good idea since there may b a chance that someone might just go unconscious while skiing lol. i'd like to c that... a guy's halfway down the hill when suddenly he sleeps and tumbles all the way down taking 5 fellow skiers with him, lol. -sighz- i'm just jealous, ignore that.
I just found out our school actually DIDN'T have philosophy! AHH! oh the teacher said... maybe they do and she was misinformed! but eitherway, i won't pick it just coz the teacher said there wasn't. I stopped listening after she said there wasn't, but i heard something about the teacher not having enough codes or something (example HIF...blah blah blah... yah), and it was part of a leadership course...? dunno, either way it doesn't do much for me since i change philosophy into beginners guitar! lol! might hafta spend money buying a guitar (or renting one... dun c the point in renting though...). but... i can always just bubble in philosophy haha... since i already have a signature for intro to anthropology...etc... and it's in the same box as philosophy... -sighz- so disappointed. need to do hmwk, bye bye.
"In life, you don't need to win, just keep playing"
Monday, March 07, 2005
"What's With..."
mweh sorta did this one before but here goes...
"What's With Tests... Teachers don't really care on finding out what you know or need work on... yet they call it a "Test"
"What's With Tests... Teachers don't really care on finding out what you know or need work on... yet they call it a "Test"
Down time....
Its been a while, maybe I'm trying to avoid posting, maybe I'm just afraid I'll open up. Life's been a drag lately, as work has been piling up and for once in my academic life, I can see myself starting to go down hill. I'm starting to loose sleep and self-esteem, which seems strange to talk about, humiliating to admit. Classes are starting to get irrelevant as the stupid people try to make class funny, but its putting us behind. You can only go along with it for so long, but now they're wasting my time. Its annoying, especially when there's nothing stopping them.
Maybe its that feeling of annoyance that making me feel weak lately, especially after I found out how weak I really am... From where I thought I was and wanted to be. The might be the first post where someone said something that put themselves down, or maybe I misinterpreted the earlier posts. Feeling useless doesn't help much, and the lack of sleep and silence is starting to ware me down. I keep lying to myself, telling me that its just a phase, just stress before stress free times. I keep pushing the notions away, not completing thoughts and procrastination.
That's my main problem, not enough self-motivation to get anything done. At first it was alright, but I can only hide away from it for so long, especially once the result of procrastinating starts coming around. So much I want to do, that I need to do, but I make excuses to push them away. The thing that scares me the most is the fact of "if not now, when" and the thought in the back of my head that's says thought that I will eventually end up procrastinating on these thoughts again and push thing back further.
I always assumed I worked hard, but what's working hard if you never reach your limitations, I have never actually pushed my self to, let alone passed my mental endurance. I have never had the sensations of breaking my limits to the point I can't do anymore, to the point of collapse. Maybe its because I've seen other people reach their limits and starting to surpass me. I've never had to catch up before, and now that I'm being forced to do so, I'm standing still. I'm not afraid, or maybe its that I don't know what I'm afraid of.
All I know for sure is, that ever since I was younger, I always thought to myself, "does it matter after death, does any of it matter, why waste my time for a lost cause, a battle I'm suppose to loose." People might find me paranoid, but I'm just typing without restrictions... Letting ideas flow... There I go again with another excuse. Maybe I'm trying to impress the wrong people, maybe I'm thinking to hard, maybe I'm not getting enough sleep.. Maybe this, maybe that, but I can't come to a conclusion, so I'm left in the middle again, trying to find an end. I know the end of me is death, I know its inevitable, but for some reason, that ending is not good enough, so I'm stuck in the middle of everything... Looking for an end to my thoughts, or I'm lost.... And suppose to be searching for a beginning, something I haven't seen in a long time
6:35: Some thinking has been going on, as well as some reading, and listening to music, when I realized something. I have no dreams. I have goals, I have ambitions, I have things I want to do, but no single entity that links all of these together. I don't have a solid base for my goals, which explains my lack of motivation. I have more opportunities then what most people have, and I try to keep as many opportunities open, but I have no single way of deciding anything. It's my dream, life long goal that I don't have, so I'm left in the shadows of others, trying to help them instead myself. I can try hard and do something, I can... But I don't, because I don't have a reason to, there's nowhere I want to be, there's no single place in the world I want to be, more than anything else. Everything is judged equal in my mind, there's nothing that stands out.... And I can't explain to myself why. I know its a problem, probably part of a bigger problem, but something that needs to be dealt with, but again, I don't have a reason to solve... So I'm left hanging, in a paradox I made for myself.... All I need is for a place to begin, even if it means starting over with nothing... at least I can use that as an excuse to myself....
I make no sense above, and I wrote it. I skip from one thing to another, but then again, I'm not reading what I'm typing, just letting it be.
*Side not... thers an annonymous person thats been posting lately, poking fun at us, with the shield of alack of identifiable name
They say that as the universe began with a bang, it will end with one, coming back into a singularity. From it, there, will be another release of energy from a bang, and the universe will start over again, and play out exactly as it did last time. If this is true, then this might be the only chance to get things right, for the sake of eternity.
Maybe its that feeling of annoyance that making me feel weak lately, especially after I found out how weak I really am... From where I thought I was and wanted to be. The might be the first post where someone said something that put themselves down, or maybe I misinterpreted the earlier posts. Feeling useless doesn't help much, and the lack of sleep and silence is starting to ware me down. I keep lying to myself, telling me that its just a phase, just stress before stress free times. I keep pushing the notions away, not completing thoughts and procrastination.
That's my main problem, not enough self-motivation to get anything done. At first it was alright, but I can only hide away from it for so long, especially once the result of procrastinating starts coming around. So much I want to do, that I need to do, but I make excuses to push them away. The thing that scares me the most is the fact of "if not now, when" and the thought in the back of my head that's says thought that I will eventually end up procrastinating on these thoughts again and push thing back further.
I always assumed I worked hard, but what's working hard if you never reach your limitations, I have never actually pushed my self to, let alone passed my mental endurance. I have never had the sensations of breaking my limits to the point I can't do anymore, to the point of collapse. Maybe its because I've seen other people reach their limits and starting to surpass me. I've never had to catch up before, and now that I'm being forced to do so, I'm standing still. I'm not afraid, or maybe its that I don't know what I'm afraid of.
All I know for sure is, that ever since I was younger, I always thought to myself, "does it matter after death, does any of it matter, why waste my time for a lost cause, a battle I'm suppose to loose." People might find me paranoid, but I'm just typing without restrictions... Letting ideas flow... There I go again with another excuse. Maybe I'm trying to impress the wrong people, maybe I'm thinking to hard, maybe I'm not getting enough sleep.. Maybe this, maybe that, but I can't come to a conclusion, so I'm left in the middle again, trying to find an end. I know the end of me is death, I know its inevitable, but for some reason, that ending is not good enough, so I'm stuck in the middle of everything... Looking for an end to my thoughts, or I'm lost.... And suppose to be searching for a beginning, something I haven't seen in a long time
6:35: Some thinking has been going on, as well as some reading, and listening to music, when I realized something. I have no dreams. I have goals, I have ambitions, I have things I want to do, but no single entity that links all of these together. I don't have a solid base for my goals, which explains my lack of motivation. I have more opportunities then what most people have, and I try to keep as many opportunities open, but I have no single way of deciding anything. It's my dream, life long goal that I don't have, so I'm left in the shadows of others, trying to help them instead myself. I can try hard and do something, I can... But I don't, because I don't have a reason to, there's nowhere I want to be, there's no single place in the world I want to be, more than anything else. Everything is judged equal in my mind, there's nothing that stands out.... And I can't explain to myself why. I know its a problem, probably part of a bigger problem, but something that needs to be dealt with, but again, I don't have a reason to solve... So I'm left hanging, in a paradox I made for myself.... All I need is for a place to begin, even if it means starting over with nothing... at least I can use that as an excuse to myself....
I make no sense above, and I wrote it. I skip from one thing to another, but then again, I'm not reading what I'm typing, just letting it be.
*Side not... thers an annonymous person thats been posting lately, poking fun at us, with the shield of alack of identifiable name
They say that as the universe began with a bang, it will end with one, coming back into a singularity. From it, there, will be another release of energy from a bang, and the universe will start over again, and play out exactly as it did last time. If this is true, then this might be the only chance to get things right, for the sake of eternity.
post4
hey! OMGosh! we went to ... someones... house today again afterschool (12 05) and it was FRIGGEN RAINING! going to his house was fine... it was GOING BAK TO MY HOUSE THAT WAS HORRIBLE! i didn't actually time how long it took me to get from his house to mine, guessing about 25-30 (extra time from trying to AVOID puddles!). There's water dripping down my hair every second and my pants looks like it was just washed coz it's SOAKED! my bag's soaked, my soaks r damp, my jacket is really soaked... the only thing not soaked is my sweater since it was under the jacket. newayz, yah! we almost did everything we did on saturday 'cept the poker, the pizza, n yah... it was mostly all video games. Naruto2... i almost mastered it! I ACTUALLY GOT TO C THE 3RD hokages shinigami thing! wooooooo! that was awesome. I want that game... gotta get ... someone... to burn it for me so i can play it at unknownuser's house or something (closest friend that has a ps2 i can think of). At the end, we played prince of tennis! yah!! eventhough we can prolly only win a game when ... someone... plays, it was fun. yah... no one got a match point 'cept when me and ... someone... played. it was all good... table tennis got me very tired. and now i just remembered i got hmwk to do. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
anywayz, i got more song downloading to do from POT. also need to do my hmwk, wrap a gift, make a card, n stuff... yah... no one really reads this anywayz. so bye!
p.s. When is the new background gonna b up??? (directed at m&m's)
note: somebody is typed to protect the person we're trying to avoid mentioning.
edited: OMG! AND NOW IT'S SUNNY! I GO OUT, IT RAINS, I COME IN IT SHINES!
reedited: oh yah, we all left the school b4 jacky soo all the guests were at one place, and the host was somewhere else. our motto: "he has to go home sometime"
anywayz, i got more song downloading to do from POT. also need to do my hmwk, wrap a gift, make a card, n stuff... yah... no one really reads this anywayz. so bye!
p.s. When is the new background gonna b up??? (directed at m&m's)
note: somebody is typed to protect the person we're trying to avoid mentioning.
edited: OMG! AND NOW IT'S SUNNY! I GO OUT, IT RAINS, I COME IN IT SHINES!
reedited: oh yah, we all left the school b4 jacky soo all the guests were at one place, and the host was somewhere else. our motto: "he has to go home sometime"
"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"
Sunday, March 06, 2005
BUsy Like a BEE...
are they even busy? haha they just sound cool together... yes my lack of posting is due to the result of multiple teachers who just "coincidentally" decide to have a test on the same week... there was at least a month without tests... and then boom!... 4 tests in one week... i dont think they should call it a test as i'm sure their purpose isn't to learn what we know and then help us improve in the areas that we are weak in... no i'm sure its just there to get marks for our report cards... stupid... well anyways people have fun arguing on the lack of posting... i'm sure everyone has their reasons...
"What's With Chores... PARent'S WAy Of Giving Out "Homework"
"What's With Chores... PARent'S WAy Of Giving Out "Homework"
post3
i'm jus saying he's more hardworking than u! and he still finds time to post! lol.
anywayz, yah... got a new video card thanx to drakonen, FINALLY bought a christmas present i owed somebody from last christmas, got to play a little prince of tennis and naruto at somebody's house (he may actually read this... wow.), and go to play table tennis again, got a little exercise jogging, played a lil' poker... n datz all. Prince of tennis fan dubbed version wasn't that good... u can hear the air from their mouths on the mic. voice for echizen doesn't sound 12, it sounds more like 20, and it sounds so weird! i dunno, it wasn't THAT bad, but wasn't that good either....
anywayz, gotta go do my hmwk. first time i actually haf hmwk from all 4 subjects. cya!
note: my align center and colour change isn't working.
"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"
anywayz, yah... got a new video card thanx to drakonen, FINALLY bought a christmas present i owed somebody from last christmas, got to play a little prince of tennis and naruto at somebody's house (he may actually read this... wow.), and go to play table tennis again, got a little exercise jogging, played a lil' poker... n datz all. Prince of tennis fan dubbed version wasn't that good... u can hear the air from their mouths on the mic. voice for echizen doesn't sound 12, it sounds more like 20, and it sounds so weird! i dunno, it wasn't THAT bad, but wasn't that good either....
anywayz, gotta go do my hmwk. first time i actually haf hmwk from all 4 subjects. cya!
note: my align center and colour change isn't working.
"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"
S.S
i quote
" if UU can find time to post, anyone can "
from s.s
what exactly are you implying?
Anyways.. Ms.C is being stupid again.. Since when democracy needs to be spelt with a capital D?
Hope the petition will help.. so she can get fired and never come back =]
" if UU can find time to post, anyone can "
from s.s
what exactly are you implying?
Anyways.. Ms.C is being stupid again.. Since when democracy needs to be spelt with a capital D?
Hope the petition will help.. so she can get fired and never come back =]
Friday, March 04, 2005
4...
There r FOUR ppl doing this blog... and only HALF of us r actually BLOGGIN! hallo? if reading this and ur part of the 4 i'm refering to and ur not posting, START!
had a history test today... easier than i thought but i still think i'll get bad on it. I love writing fake letters for tests, lol. I chose to write a letter to someone as a soldier fighting in WWI. I was gonna bring home a cute nurse, hehe. ppl got gassed, shot, blown up... yah... the letter was fun...
other than that... looking forward to monday since our school has an extremely early day off. 12 05! oh yah! dunno wht i'll b doing for 3 hours... -sighz- then comes the bubble day and yah...
start POSTING! if UU can find time to post, anyone can!
had a history test today... easier than i thought but i still think i'll get bad on it. I love writing fake letters for tests, lol. I chose to write a letter to someone as a soldier fighting in WWI. I was gonna bring home a cute nurse, hehe. ppl got gassed, shot, blown up... yah... the letter was fun...
other than that... looking forward to monday since our school has an extremely early day off. 12 05! oh yah! dunno wht i'll b doing for 3 hours... -sighz- then comes the bubble day and yah...
start POSTING! if UU can find time to post, anyone can!
"Live life like you are now, but better"
Thursday, March 03, 2005
What's With...
"What's With Monopoly's Jails... YoU Bribe Them With 50$ And THey Let You Go FRee... Corrupt?!??..."
"What's With Monopoly's "Just Visiting" for The jaiLs... Can'T I say I'm "Just Visiting" BoardWaLK?... "
"What's With Monopoly's "Just Visiting" for The jaiLs... Can'T I say I'm "Just Visiting" BoardWaLK?... "
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Aftermath...
ya so everyone beat me posting about what happened at ss's party... i'm sure my stomach must of had somekind of workout... laughing for so long and all... another short post thats right...
"What's With Monopoly Pieces a Dog, a CAr, a Hat?!?...Since When DId THey Have To STaY in hoTels??"
^wait i was going to say something... what was it???... oh well nvm...
Edited: by SS (that's my name now? lol) yah... black to white. Sorry UU
"What's With Monopoly Pieces a Dog, a CAr, a Hat?!?...Since When DId THey Have To STaY in hoTels??"
^wait i was going to say something... what was it???... oh well nvm...
Edited: by SS (that's my name now? lol) yah... black to white. Sorry UU
Blog looked boring...
Hey.... the blog looked boring without any new posts so i thought i'd type up stuff... drakonen and I finally finished Full Metal Alchemist... took a while since we were procrastinating for prolly under a year... (well i started watching it after Hikaru No Go... which was a WHILE bak). Anywayz yah... i took a 3 hour nap today... that's how bored i was.
I'm having trouble picking my courses... many ppl don't have enough courses that they're interested in... I have too much... So let's start counting shall we, since I'm bored and i'm trying to procrastinate on doing my hmwk. (8) All three sciences (to keep my choices for careers open) which leaves us to. (5) math (maybe the 3M course since it says that the pre-requisite has to b 80% in the 2D class, i only got 74%, so i dunno), (4) english (academic no duh), and that leads us to 3 more! Come bak after the break, we shall count down the last 3, don't touch that keyboard/mouse!
I'm having trouble picking my courses... many ppl don't have enough courses that they're interested in... I have too much... So let's start counting shall we, since I'm bored and i'm trying to procrastinate on doing my hmwk. (8) All three sciences (to keep my choices for careers open) which leaves us to. (5) math (maybe the 3M course since it says that the pre-requisite has to b 80% in the 2D class, i only got 74%, so i dunno), (4) english (academic no duh), and that leads us to 3 more! Come bak after the break, we shall count down the last 3, don't touch that keyboard/mouse!
-Break-
And we're bak! So, yah, u can c how bored i am... I'm also planning to take (3) Intro to Anthro, Psycho, and Socio (too lazy to type out the last half). Now those are the 6 that i'm sure i'll be wanting to take. The next r those I'm not sure yet so need comments or face to face advice. "Philosophy, the Big question", "Beginner Guitar Grade 11", "Phys Ed. comp-Male", and... "World Religions: Beliefs, Issues and Religious Traditions" (thing says Religiour and i'm not sure if it's a spelling mistake or something so yah... take note). I wonder if i'm forgetting anything... oh well... that's that. Bye, need to prep my mind for hmwk.
"Live life like you are now, but better"
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