Noobs...

Stupid M&Ms and his lack of patience with his noobie skillz.... not my fault you suck noob..... Yes, if you haven't noticed by now, it is 12:20 am on a friday morning. I'm gonna present a history presentation in 9 hours by myself, which still is being finished up (taking a break after three hours of work). Ten hours from now, i'll be on the subway heading downtown to a French restaurant as part of a french field trip. I didn't learn a foreign language to swear at people, well maybe, just so that i can do it too both fluent and non fluent frenchies.... well.... I gotta start my summary, and then finish it... Then get to school before 8:30 to get my presentation stuff photocopied and organized....

languages

When ppl r learning languages, y do they alwayz tend to want to know how to use the "bad" words first? This shows how "bad" ppl really r coz all they want to do is insult each other. u go anywhere, n if u ask "do u know chinese?" they'll most likely go yah. and if u ask them wht they know (ESPECIALLY TEENS/YOUTHS) they go "pok guy!" and most of them dunt even know wht that means. u ask someone if they know tamil, they'll know insulting words too. u go ask anime fans if they know japanesse... they start going "yah u baka!" It's not that i don't like these ppl, i just look down on them. it's good that they're practising other languages, but plz, LEARN GOOD WORDS! putting down ppl... i look down on them. eventhough i am guilty of putting down ppl, i usually do it coz they do it to me FIRST, it's a small joke... and/or at least i dun use foreign languages to make my point. I can go on forever... but i'm afraid that i'll run out of time. so for all u ppl who use foreign languages as a weapon, know that i look down on u. I know that some of u think i'm nothing, so go ahead and use 'em. I can't stop u... I'm just "disappointed" at u. and when I'M disappointed at u... that is just sad... -shakes head-
yaws, aunt n uncle comming tomorrow, gotta sleep in basement. -sighz-

ps. DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!
i dun usually look at drafts, but mm... u can help me move too lol. just afraid u'll freeze to death without a jacket.

all done here...

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

Whats With??

This blog.. i cant publish..


i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..


i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]

Whats With

This blog.. i cant publish..


i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..


i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]

This blog.. i cant publish..


i had to type this stupid thing over like 4 times.. so im not doin this.. it was long.. i dont like the stupid blog.. it says server busy and cant connect.. and when i go back all my text are deleted..


i would help u move S.S but since u didnt mention me i wont =]

WhAt'S WiTh??

WhAt'S WiTh??

In Ur FaCe U.U!!! lol


Wuts With Google Desktop Search?? They have every site in their database now they want to search ur pc? =]


lol

hahaa S.S I WOULD help u, but u didnt include so i wont. =]

blog express

i didn't wanna put numbers anymore so i made this one special. LOL! Prince of tennis dubbed... horrible... i know... so sad. I made a post on that b4... i didn't watch the whole thing. I stopped when they got off the train... coz it was that bad...
Anywayz! english was fun! we were trying to find pictures in magazines of conformists and non-conformists and we did... but today i kept ripping out thoses pages with fragrance scents! haha! my BAG smells like fragrance! especially my binder! haha... wonder wht'll happen when i open it in class... "whoe! who's wearing perfume?" good... coz they'll blame it on the girls... but it'll b bad when they find out it's from my binder. I did that in the beginning so i could wipe it on ppl and make them smell! haha... i haf weapons now... scary ain't it? -sighz- i'm so sad.
Well.. my aunt and uncle r moving bak to canada... and since they haf no place to stay (they sold their house here b4 they went bak to hong kong coz they thought they'd live there permanently but my uncle found a job here so they're comming bak for the job). NOW I GOTTA MOVE MY COMPUTER BAK DOWN! It's so kool.. coz if u baktrack everything, i think i made a post that said i moved my computer UP! arg... i'm also gonna b sleeping downstairs for at least a month coz my aunt and uncle hafta sleep in my room... can't have them sleep in the basement. (my room's nicer than the basement for ppl who don't know...) AT LEAST I CAN WATCH LATE NIGHT MOVIES! (whoops... did i say that out loud... n no, not porn. u nasty ppl). i should rent a movie ... with surround sound at night... not very good for neighbouring houses (my surround sound ain't as good as drakonen... darn uuuuuuuuu). so yah, now i gotta move all the important stuff downstairs... so that means not much comming to my house anymore n i hafta b on my "best" behavior. -sobs- they're comming this friday... such short notice... gotta move everything tomorrow. i was planning to go over to drakonen's house to get my controller and cd marker thing bak. Or... DRAKONEN COME OVER N HELP! nah... couldn't ask u to do that... nvm. u prolly haf work to do newayz... (psst... unknown... come! lol! wait.. u guys haf hmwk too... darn...).
oh well, cya! this is long enough for me.

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

Like a Virus it spreads...

currently infected with the north american strain of sleeping sickness... falling asleep in class is not a good thing... especially if the teacher is talking... not a smart thing to do... nope...

Holy Crap... Prince of Tennis (Fan DubbEd)... WHAT WAS THAT???!??... THEY ACTUALLY SHARE THAT GARBAGE!~!!... How can you sit through that whole thing???... what was good about it...umm... the music? all of the music... no *just* the background music... trying to sing the theme song and the ending song? no just stop please... the bad? every single other thing!~!!! leaves scars that will last forever...

You know you're getting old when

u know ur getting old when u start taking afternoon naps again at the age of 16? well.. if u dunt normally do it already. maybe by body just isn't strong enough to stay up late everyday (and my late isn't really late... my late can even b other ppl's early). anywayz... i need to re-organize my time so I start sleeping at least at 11. I only started sleeping after 11 after watching Matrix reloaded at night coz it was my first time watching it and i couldn't wait. Then everything just started going downhill from there...
well... some ppl at school get to ski/snow board tomorrow... i woulda too... if i wasn't too lazy in filling out forms and not too poor to hand in the fee lol. also, i dun think going to school at 6 45 and going skiing is a good idea since there may b a chance that someone might just go unconscious while skiing lol. i'd like to c that... a guy's halfway down the hill when suddenly he sleeps and tumbles all the way down taking 5 fellow skiers with him, lol. -sighz- i'm just jealous, ignore that.
I just found out our school actually DIDN'T have philosophy! AHH! oh the teacher said... maybe they do and she was misinformed! but eitherway, i won't pick it just coz the teacher said there wasn't. I stopped listening after she said there wasn't, but i heard something about the teacher not having enough codes or something (example HIF...blah blah blah... yah), and it was part of a leadership course...? dunno, either way it doesn't do much for me since i change philosophy into beginners guitar! lol! might hafta spend money buying a guitar (or renting one... dun c the point in renting though...). but... i can always just bubble in philosophy haha... since i already have a signature for intro to anthropology...etc... and it's in the same box as philosophy... -sighz- so disappointed. need to do hmwk, bye bye.

"In life, you don't need to win, just keep playing"

"What's With..."

mweh sorta did this one before but here goes...

"What's With Tests... Teachers don't really care on finding out what you know or need work on... yet they call it a "Test"

Down time....

Its been a while, maybe I'm trying to avoid posting, maybe I'm just afraid I'll open up. Life's been a drag lately, as work has been piling up and for once in my academic life, I can see myself starting to go down hill. I'm starting to loose sleep and self-esteem, which seems strange to talk about, humiliating to admit. Classes are starting to get irrelevant as the stupid people try to make class funny, but its putting us behind. You can only go along with it for so long, but now they're wasting my time. Its annoying, especially when there's nothing stopping them.

Maybe its that feeling of annoyance that making me feel weak lately, especially after I found out how weak I really am... From where I thought I was and wanted to be. The might be the first post where someone said something that put themselves down, or maybe I misinterpreted the earlier posts. Feeling useless doesn't help much, and the lack of sleep and silence is starting to ware me down. I keep lying to myself, telling me that its just a phase, just stress before stress free times. I keep pushing the notions away, not completing thoughts and procrastination.

That's my main problem, not enough self-motivation to get anything done. At first it was alright, but I can only hide away from it for so long, especially once the result of procrastinating starts coming around. So much I want to do, that I need to do, but I make excuses to push them away. The thing that scares me the most is the fact of "if not now, when" and the thought in the back of my head that's says thought that I will eventually end up procrastinating on these thoughts again and push thing back further.

I always assumed I worked hard, but what's working hard if you never reach your limitations, I have never actually pushed my self to, let alone passed my mental endurance. I have never had the sensations of breaking my limits to the point I can't do anymore, to the point of collapse. Maybe its because I've seen other people reach their limits and starting to surpass me. I've never had to catch up before, and now that I'm being forced to do so, I'm standing still. I'm not afraid, or maybe its that I don't know what I'm afraid of.

All I know for sure is, that ever since I was younger, I always thought to myself, "does it matter after death, does any of it matter, why waste my time for a lost cause, a battle I'm suppose to loose." People might find me paranoid, but I'm just typing without restrictions... Letting ideas flow... There I go again with another excuse. Maybe I'm trying to impress the wrong people, maybe I'm thinking to hard, maybe I'm not getting enough sleep.. Maybe this, maybe that, but I can't come to a conclusion, so I'm left in the middle again, trying to find an end. I know the end of me is death, I know its inevitable, but for some reason, that ending is not good enough, so I'm stuck in the middle of everything... Looking for an end to my thoughts, or I'm lost.... And suppose to be searching for a beginning, something I haven't seen in a long time

6:35: Some thinking has been going on, as well as some reading, and listening to music, when I realized something. I have no dreams. I have goals, I have ambitions, I have things I want to do, but no single entity that links all of these together. I don't have a solid base for my goals, which explains my lack of motivation. I have more opportunities then what most people have, and I try to keep as many opportunities open, but I have no single way of deciding anything. It's my dream, life long goal that I don't have, so I'm left in the shadows of others, trying to help them instead myself. I can try hard and do something, I can... But I don't, because I don't have a reason to, there's nowhere I want to be, there's no single place in the world I want to be, more than anything else. Everything is judged equal in my mind, there's nothing that stands out.... And I can't explain to myself why. I know its a problem, probably part of a bigger problem, but something that needs to be dealt with, but again, I don't have a reason to solve... So I'm left hanging, in a paradox I made for myself.... All I need is for a place to begin, even if it means starting over with nothing... at least I can use that as an excuse to myself....


I make no sense above, and I wrote it. I skip from one thing to another, but then again, I'm not reading what I'm typing, just letting it be.

*Side not... thers an annonymous person thats been posting lately, poking fun at us, with the shield of alack of identifiable name


They say that as the universe began with a bang, it will end with one, coming back into a singularity. From it, there, will be another release of energy from a bang, and the universe will start over again, and play out exactly as it did last time. If this is true, then this might be the only chance to get things right, for the sake of eternity.

post4

hey! OMGosh! we went to ... someones... house today again afterschool (12 05) and it was FRIGGEN RAINING! going to his house was fine... it was GOING BAK TO MY HOUSE THAT WAS HORRIBLE! i didn't actually time how long it took me to get from his house to mine, guessing about 25-30 (extra time from trying to AVOID puddles!). There's water dripping down my hair every second and my pants looks like it was just washed coz it's SOAKED! my bag's soaked, my soaks r damp, my jacket is really soaked... the only thing not soaked is my sweater since it was under the jacket. newayz, yah! we almost did everything we did on saturday 'cept the poker, the pizza, n yah... it was mostly all video games. Naruto2... i almost mastered it! I ACTUALLY GOT TO C THE 3RD hokages shinigami thing! wooooooo! that was awesome. I want that game... gotta get ... someone... to burn it for me so i can play it at unknownuser's house or something (closest friend that has a ps2 i can think of). At the end, we played prince of tennis! yah!! eventhough we can prolly only win a game when ... someone... plays, it was fun. yah... no one got a match point 'cept when me and ... someone... played. it was all good... table tennis got me very tired. and now i just remembered i got hmwk to do. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
anywayz, i got more song downloading to do from POT. also need to do my hmwk, wrap a gift, make a card, n stuff... yah... no one really reads this anywayz. so bye!
p.s. When is the new background gonna b up??? (directed at m&m's)

note: somebody is typed to protect the person we're trying to avoid mentioning.
edited: OMG! AND NOW IT'S SUNNY! I GO OUT, IT RAINS, I COME IN IT SHINES!
reedited: oh yah, we all left the school b4 jacky soo all the guests were at one place, and the host was somewhere else. our motto: "he has to go home sometime"

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

BUsy Like a BEE...

are they even busy? haha they just sound cool together... yes my lack of posting is due to the result of multiple teachers who just "coincidentally" decide to have a test on the same week... there was at least a month without tests... and then boom!... 4 tests in one week... i dont think they should call it a test as i'm sure their purpose isn't to learn what we know and then help us improve in the areas that we are weak in... no i'm sure its just there to get marks for our report cards... stupid... well anyways people have fun arguing on the lack of posting... i'm sure everyone has their reasons...

"What's With Chores... PARent'S WAy Of Giving Out "Homework"

post3

i'm jus saying he's more hardworking than u! and he still finds time to post! lol.

anywayz, yah... got a new video card thanx to drakonen, FINALLY bought a christmas present i owed somebody from last christmas, got to play a little prince of tennis and naruto at somebody's house (he may actually read this... wow.), and go to play table tennis again, got a little exercise jogging, played a lil' poker... n datz all. Prince of tennis fan dubbed version wasn't that good... u can hear the air from their mouths on the mic. voice for echizen doesn't sound 12, it sounds more like 20, and it sounds so weird! i dunno, it wasn't THAT bad, but wasn't that good either....

anywayz, gotta go do my hmwk. first time i actually haf hmwk from all 4 subjects. cya!

note: my align center and colour change isn't working.

"In life, you don't have to win, just keep playing"

S.S

i quote

" if UU can find time to post, anyone can "

from s.s


what exactly are you implying?

Anyways.. Ms.C is being stupid again.. Since when democracy needs to be spelt with a capital D?

Hope the petition will help.. so she can get fired and never come back =]

4...

There r FOUR ppl doing this blog... and only HALF of us r actually BLOGGIN! hallo? if reading this and ur part of the 4 i'm refering to and ur not posting, START!

had a history test today... easier than i thought but i still think i'll get bad on it. I love writing fake letters for tests, lol. I chose to write a letter to someone as a soldier fighting in WWI. I was gonna bring home a cute nurse, hehe. ppl got gassed, shot, blown up... yah... the letter was fun...

other than that... looking forward to monday since our school has an extremely early day off. 12 05! oh yah! dunno wht i'll b doing for 3 hours... -sighz- then comes the bubble day and yah...

start POSTING! if UU can find time to post, anyone can!

"Live life like you are now, but better"

What's With...

"What's With Monopoly's Jails... YoU Bribe Them With 50$ And THey Let You Go FRee... Corrupt?!??..."

"What's With Monopoly's "Just Visiting" for The jaiLs... Can'T I say I'm "Just Visiting" BoardWaLK?... "

Aftermath...

ya so everyone beat me posting about what happened at ss's party... i'm sure my stomach must of had somekind of workout... laughing for so long and all... another short post thats right...

"What's With Monopoly Pieces a Dog, a CAr, a Hat?!?...Since When DId THey Have To STaY in hoTels??"

^wait i was going to say something... what was it???... oh well nvm...

Edited: by SS (that's my name now? lol) yah... black to white. Sorry UU

Blog looked boring...

Hey.... the blog looked boring without any new posts so i thought i'd type up stuff... drakonen and I finally finished Full Metal Alchemist... took a while since we were procrastinating for prolly under a year... (well i started watching it after Hikaru No Go... which was a WHILE bak). Anywayz yah... i took a 3 hour nap today... that's how bored i was.
I'm having trouble picking my courses... many ppl don't have enough courses that they're interested in... I have too much... So let's start counting shall we, since I'm bored and i'm trying to procrastinate on doing my hmwk. (8) All three sciences (to keep my choices for careers open) which leaves us to. (5) math (maybe the 3M course since it says that the pre-requisite has to b 80% in the 2D class, i only got 74%, so i dunno), (4) english (academic no duh), and that leads us to 3 more! Come bak after the break, we shall count down the last 3, don't touch that keyboard/mouse!

-Break-

And we're bak! So, yah, u can c how bored i am... I'm also planning to take (3) Intro to Anthro, Psycho, and Socio (too lazy to type out the last half). Now those are the 6 that i'm sure i'll be wanting to take. The next r those I'm not sure yet so need comments or face to face advice. "Philosophy, the Big question", "Beginner Guitar Grade 11", "Phys Ed. comp-Male", and... "World Religions: Beliefs, Issues and Religious Traditions" (thing says Religiour and i'm not sure if it's a spelling mistake or something so yah... take note). I wonder if i'm forgetting anything... oh well... that's that. Bye, need to prep my mind for hmwk.

"Live life like you are now, but better"