-sniffs- -wipes tears- i'm just so proud of one of the members of this blog, haha. Although also very worried, still proud of him nonetheless, lol! Our little Jon Yeap has grown and gotten himself a girlfriend! How do I/we/you ask? I do not know... but he's SUPPOSE TO EXPLAIN after i finish my stories that i started a month ago. yes... and the explanation/story better be good or i'll b bugging you/him *depending on who's reading* for a loooooooooooong time.
So, i know there may be those of you who might not wanna read the story, soooo, bye? lol! i'll wait for some to close the window or go somewhere else...
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Last time on "My Life's Hardships"
"Of course it wasn't just one day... it was a series of days... weeks... sometimes i'd b like "no, i can't... i'm not mature enough" and other times i'd b like "but i like her... so wht the heck! let's go for it". And then, Sunday July 24th came... ... .. ."
-fade out-
-opening theme plays-
Actually... this is the hardest part to explain due to the amount of time that has passed so i kinda forgot the details. I don't even remember what happend on that Sunday. -sighz- BUT! because the purpose of a blog is to record stuff that happens day after day... i looked up what happend that day (i had posted on both blogs) so i actually not have a really good memory of what happend =( Well that Sunday wasn't really a good Sunday... looking back at it, it's prolly the only day i wished never happend. Um... I picked her up from her house to go to church with me, she gave me a backstreet boys cd which i was very very happy about. Zooming through the day... there was just a lot of hugging coz i was really thankful for what she gave me. That's not even the part that i wanna erase the most. It's the time frame from my house, to walking back to her place that was stupid of me. Ugh... she was bugging me about who i liked for a long time... so during that walk... i told her... and let's just say it got awkward... -sighz- don't even wanna think about this anymore but i must go on!
So yes... I confessed that i liked her... she hinted tht she felt the same... but the indirectness of her response didn't take the awkwardness away. I am a very shy person! I would NEVER confess to someone that i liked them unless they did it first... and if i felt the same... obviously ( i think). So what i did then was COMPLETELY out of character... it was like i was someone else... and i didn't like that. Although what i said was true... the fact that i said it should not have happend. So yes... after that day, it made almost everyday after it awkward. She didn't talk to me much... like during Nimalan's birthday party (i'm sorry nimalan... lol! but it explains why i was swinging my baseball bat... which i only do when i'm stressed). I dunno what happend, but eventually we started talking on the phone again, and she invited me to lunch coz she got her first pay i think.
This is the most killer of all killers... and i feel extremely bad about this day... VERY bad... and i won't blame the readers for looking ashamed at me... coz this day has really killed my mood for a long time... even today. I constantly pray for forgiveness for this day... so i'm very very sorry this day happend. I can't express how deeply i dislike this day. -sighz- okay! so! We went to the all you can eat jap buffet place and bamburgh and yah, had a fun time. That was okay, had kool food, enjoyed it alot. Then... we went to the park and sat on the benches coz it was in the shade and it was very hot out that day. Umm... so yes... we were talking n stuff... and then... starting tickling each other... trapped a bee inside a coke can... random guy in a purple tutu came out of no where (that was randomly put there to lighten up my mood so i can actually put down wht happend), he had very hairy legs... and after some time we sat on the bench with my arms around her and my hands on her hands.
Yup... never, ever again. It was an experience never to be repeated again. I learned a lot from this experience and prolly got wiser because of it. Although i'm not very proud of it, it had happend, i couldn't haf self-control or disipline or whtever... and my rep has just fallen rite to the earth's core because of it. Yes... eventually, i snapped out of it. Next few weeks after that i had day camp, and it just brought me to my senses of how i have to be honest with myself and her. That this cannot carry on. I woulda still liked to remain friends with her... but to me, i can't really blame her for breaking our friendship. Although i was hoping that she was more understanding... but i guess i couldn't ask for anything more. I hated myself more than anything... but i guess after day camp and SMT camp and the trip to Tremblant really helped me recover a bit. I knew what i did after that event was rite, that i stopped what could have been a lie instead of continuing with it so no one will hurt that much. I don't know what to think... but i was being honest... and i guess not being friends with her is my "punishment"?
On a christian side to things... my relationship with God was being built up and i prayed more and trusted in Him more than ever. But then again this blog isn't for that side of things so i'll leave it at that for now. All i can say is I learned much, and hope that many will learn from my stupid mistakes. I will never do that ever again (the event thing... not the honesty thing... but by not doing the event thing, hopefully avoids the honesty thing). Yes... now i'm giving out relationship advices to ppl who need it... and hopefully it's right, haha. And after reading 2 chapters of I kissed dating goodbye (which is a kool book, buy, read, good!), you should be honest with urself and with the other person. Go for the long term relationships... and what's wrong with friendship? Get into a more serious relationship with someone only if you're looking for marriage. Because if you're just dating for the heck of it, that's just being kinda selfish. Satisfying the short term needs instead of being committed which is even better. Coz "The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment" (see! i do read!). And most of us are 18and under so there's plenty of time. You should be more concerned about school than girlfriends/boyfriends. If you have time to go out and date, spend that time achieving 100% average, or getting near it... haha. Kinda nerdy... but more productive that spending time on dates with girls/guys that u don't even know if u wanna marry. That's my dollar... long post, g'nite.
So, i know there may be those of you who might not wanna read the story, soooo, bye? lol! i'll wait for some to close the window or go somewhere else...
...
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Last time on "My Life's Hardships"
"Of course it wasn't just one day... it was a series of days... weeks... sometimes i'd b like "no, i can't... i'm not mature enough" and other times i'd b like "but i like her... so wht the heck! let's go for it". And then, Sunday July 24th came... ... .. ."
-fade out-
-opening theme plays-
Actually... this is the hardest part to explain due to the amount of time that has passed so i kinda forgot the details. I don't even remember what happend on that Sunday. -sighz- BUT! because the purpose of a blog is to record stuff that happens day after day... i looked up what happend that day (i had posted on both blogs) so i actually not have a really good memory of what happend =( Well that Sunday wasn't really a good Sunday... looking back at it, it's prolly the only day i wished never happend. Um... I picked her up from her house to go to church with me, she gave me a backstreet boys cd which i was very very happy about. Zooming through the day... there was just a lot of hugging coz i was really thankful for what she gave me. That's not even the part that i wanna erase the most. It's the time frame from my house, to walking back to her place that was stupid of me. Ugh... she was bugging me about who i liked for a long time... so during that walk... i told her... and let's just say it got awkward... -sighz- don't even wanna think about this anymore but i must go on!
So yes... I confessed that i liked her... she hinted tht she felt the same... but the indirectness of her response didn't take the awkwardness away. I am a very shy person! I would NEVER confess to someone that i liked them unless they did it first... and if i felt the same... obviously ( i think). So what i did then was COMPLETELY out of character... it was like i was someone else... and i didn't like that. Although what i said was true... the fact that i said it should not have happend. So yes... after that day, it made almost everyday after it awkward. She didn't talk to me much... like during Nimalan's birthday party (i'm sorry nimalan... lol! but it explains why i was swinging my baseball bat... which i only do when i'm stressed). I dunno what happend, but eventually we started talking on the phone again, and she invited me to lunch coz she got her first pay i think.
This is the most killer of all killers... and i feel extremely bad about this day... VERY bad... and i won't blame the readers for looking ashamed at me... coz this day has really killed my mood for a long time... even today. I constantly pray for forgiveness for this day... so i'm very very sorry this day happend. I can't express how deeply i dislike this day. -sighz- okay! so! We went to the all you can eat jap buffet place and bamburgh and yah, had a fun time. That was okay, had kool food, enjoyed it alot. Then... we went to the park and sat on the benches coz it was in the shade and it was very hot out that day. Umm... so yes... we were talking n stuff... and then... starting tickling each other... trapped a bee inside a coke can... random guy in a purple tutu came out of no where (that was randomly put there to lighten up my mood so i can actually put down wht happend), he had very hairy legs... and after some time we sat on the bench with my arms around her and my hands on her hands.
Yup... never, ever again. It was an experience never to be repeated again. I learned a lot from this experience and prolly got wiser because of it. Although i'm not very proud of it, it had happend, i couldn't haf self-control or disipline or whtever... and my rep has just fallen rite to the earth's core because of it. Yes... eventually, i snapped out of it. Next few weeks after that i had day camp, and it just brought me to my senses of how i have to be honest with myself and her. That this cannot carry on. I woulda still liked to remain friends with her... but to me, i can't really blame her for breaking our friendship. Although i was hoping that she was more understanding... but i guess i couldn't ask for anything more. I hated myself more than anything... but i guess after day camp and SMT camp and the trip to Tremblant really helped me recover a bit. I knew what i did after that event was rite, that i stopped what could have been a lie instead of continuing with it so no one will hurt that much. I don't know what to think... but i was being honest... and i guess not being friends with her is my "punishment"?
On a christian side to things... my relationship with God was being built up and i prayed more and trusted in Him more than ever. But then again this blog isn't for that side of things so i'll leave it at that for now. All i can say is I learned much, and hope that many will learn from my stupid mistakes. I will never do that ever again (the event thing... not the honesty thing... but by not doing the event thing, hopefully avoids the honesty thing). Yes... now i'm giving out relationship advices to ppl who need it... and hopefully it's right, haha. And after reading 2 chapters of I kissed dating goodbye (which is a kool book, buy, read, good!), you should be honest with urself and with the other person. Go for the long term relationships... and what's wrong with friendship? Get into a more serious relationship with someone only if you're looking for marriage. Because if you're just dating for the heck of it, that's just being kinda selfish. Satisfying the short term needs instead of being committed which is even better. Coz "The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment" (see! i do read!). And most of us are 18and under so there's plenty of time. You should be more concerned about school than girlfriends/boyfriends. If you have time to go out and date, spend that time achieving 100% average, or getting near it... haha. Kinda nerdy... but more productive that spending time on dates with girls/guys that u don't even know if u wanna marry. That's my dollar... long post, g'nite.
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Jon, if you read this, we already knew... i managed to get photographic evidence. Talked it out with gary and thought we wouldn't even mention/hint/drop any hint on our knowledge until you decided we were worth telling
timing is a funny thing
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