hey ppl, just posting now after m&m's did. pretty amazing to c "posted by m&m's"ain't it? yah... it's funny...
Nothing much happend for the last few dayz 'cept yesterday and today. This post has a little limit coz i read in my horoscope that angry outbursts may ... i forgot the word, just something like if i show my anger, ppl may take it the wrong way? So yah, i've been storing up all my anger inside. It's not really fun... since there are A LOT of reasons why i'm angry rite now. Or not angry... bit unhappy. Ok so yah, just to let u kno tht my limits may result in my posting my outer limits in my personal one which no one knows about... so heee... (hopefully nobody knows about).
Yesterday, woke up at 9 something i forgot, then i left to go to ms.hackers workplace only to find out 5-6 hours later that she didn't work that day. umm... yah. So basically, my day went like... sitting on a table, walking around the building, sitting down, walking around the building, going to indigo, going bak to her work place and walking around the building again. It may seem boring... well it is, but yah. Indigo was quite nice though... read the same books i always do, but i couldn't really concentrate coz i was worried about where ms.hacker was. I had my doubts tht she wasn't there... was just too lazy to act upon it in case she was there. "Better safe than sorry" also written on my horoscope that day along with the angry outbursts thingie. Umm... so yah, highlights of my time in that setting was a girl was making a scene with security guards in the LCBO shop thing... n also my only social activity was with this adult guy from my church whom i knew for about 5 seconds: him--"you work here?" "no, i'm just waiting for a friend" "oh, ok, bye then" "bye". Yep... that made me smile coz that was the only time i talked within a long time. Waited 'til 2 30ish, then i just left for home. I actually wanted to walk around the store 'til i had to go to church at 5, but it was just very boring.
So ok, came bak home, was really pissed (lalala... just to lighten the mood... tht wasn't an angry outburst....) ate my lunch at 4... then went to church at 5. It was actually suppose to b at 6 30 but i guess i heard wrong. I was scared at the beginning due to the event tht happend earlier in the day... "oh darn, i'm not suppose to b here too? everyone is ditching me today" i thought that coz no one i knew was at church 'til i went up one more floor and found someone i knew. was SO happy i found her or else i woulda been EXTRE.. really mad... yah. So i practised singing and picked out songs 'til around 9 15, was really hot and tiring. But, it lightened up my mood. I won't go any further coz my day meets a little downfall after.
Today, drakonen's birthday! My day didn't start off with him though. Today i woke up at 8 45, watched some anime, went to Bridletown Park Church where i met some of my church friends who were there telling kids about God. yah... i kinda helped out a lil', but it was very insignificant i don't even kno why i went. But i did give my daycamp partner some information about the camp schedual and everything so yah... it was kool. kids were funny though. Yah... i walked there which took around 20 minutes i guess. Then i went to bridlewood mall at 11 which took around 5 minutes of walking. Bought some ingredients and a cake for drakonen. I walked all the way bak home which took about... half an hour. Then i went to buy mango icecream which apparently wasn't ice cream... i dunno. It was the only mango thing there in the fridge on top of the ice cream stuff. Well... thts a good 2 dollars and 2 cents wasted. -sighz- but whtever. After, everyone came over and cooked n stuff. Food was pretty good. I was unhappy about some stuff but u kno... horoscope. Glad i got my other blog haha which i hope no one finds. So... yaw... rented hitch, movie was pretty good. I wanna rent Monty Python and the Holy Grail, coz the library... i'm like in the hundreds so yah. I might either buy that or rent tht if i ever get paid. Suppose to b a very funny movie coz my church friends haf only been talking about that for half a year! I hafn't even watched it yet. But then my moral self thought about the girls first so yah, had to sacrifice eventhough i wasn't in the mood for blah...
Point is, we had food, we had cake, it was fun for the most part. I'm really mentally strained, glad it's the summer... eventhough it's about to go away. Yep... Ok... wish i had somewhere to scream... i can't cry coz i'm a guy (alliteration) so yah, forced to scream. k, whtever.
Nothing much happend for the last few dayz 'cept yesterday and today. This post has a little limit coz i read in my horoscope that angry outbursts may ... i forgot the word, just something like if i show my anger, ppl may take it the wrong way? So yah, i've been storing up all my anger inside. It's not really fun... since there are A LOT of reasons why i'm angry rite now. Or not angry... bit unhappy. Ok so yah, just to let u kno tht my limits may result in my posting my outer limits in my personal one which no one knows about... so heee... (hopefully nobody knows about).
Yesterday, woke up at 9 something i forgot, then i left to go to ms.hackers workplace only to find out 5-6 hours later that she didn't work that day. umm... yah. So basically, my day went like... sitting on a table, walking around the building, sitting down, walking around the building, going to indigo, going bak to her work place and walking around the building again. It may seem boring... well it is, but yah. Indigo was quite nice though... read the same books i always do, but i couldn't really concentrate coz i was worried about where ms.hacker was. I had my doubts tht she wasn't there... was just too lazy to act upon it in case she was there. "Better safe than sorry" also written on my horoscope that day along with the angry outbursts thingie. Umm... so yah, highlights of my time in that setting was a girl was making a scene with security guards in the LCBO shop thing... n also my only social activity was with this adult guy from my church whom i knew for about 5 seconds: him--"you work here?" "no, i'm just waiting for a friend" "oh, ok, bye then" "bye". Yep... that made me smile coz that was the only time i talked within a long time. Waited 'til 2 30ish, then i just left for home. I actually wanted to walk around the store 'til i had to go to church at 5, but it was just very boring.
So ok, came bak home, was really pissed (lalala... just to lighten the mood... tht wasn't an angry outburst....) ate my lunch at 4... then went to church at 5. It was actually suppose to b at 6 30 but i guess i heard wrong. I was scared at the beginning due to the event tht happend earlier in the day... "oh darn, i'm not suppose to b here too? everyone is ditching me today" i thought that coz no one i knew was at church 'til i went up one more floor and found someone i knew. was SO happy i found her or else i woulda been EXTRE.. really mad... yah. So i practised singing and picked out songs 'til around 9 15, was really hot and tiring. But, it lightened up my mood. I won't go any further coz my day meets a little downfall after.
Today, drakonen's birthday! My day didn't start off with him though. Today i woke up at 8 45, watched some anime, went to Bridletown Park Church where i met some of my church friends who were there telling kids about God. yah... i kinda helped out a lil', but it was very insignificant i don't even kno why i went. But i did give my daycamp partner some information about the camp schedual and everything so yah... it was kool. kids were funny though. Yah... i walked there which took around 20 minutes i guess. Then i went to bridlewood mall at 11 which took around 5 minutes of walking. Bought some ingredients and a cake for drakonen. I walked all the way bak home which took about... half an hour. Then i went to buy mango icecream which apparently wasn't ice cream... i dunno. It was the only mango thing there in the fridge on top of the ice cream stuff. Well... thts a good 2 dollars and 2 cents wasted. -sighz- but whtever. After, everyone came over and cooked n stuff. Food was pretty good. I was unhappy about some stuff but u kno... horoscope. Glad i got my other blog haha which i hope no one finds. So... yaw... rented hitch, movie was pretty good. I wanna rent Monty Python and the Holy Grail, coz the library... i'm like in the hundreds so yah. I might either buy that or rent tht if i ever get paid. Suppose to b a very funny movie coz my church friends haf only been talking about that for half a year! I hafn't even watched it yet. But then my moral self thought about the girls first so yah, had to sacrifice eventhough i wasn't in the mood for blah...
Point is, we had food, we had cake, it was fun for the most part. I'm really mentally strained, glad it's the summer... eventhough it's about to go away. Yep... Ok... wish i had somewhere to scream... i can't cry coz i'm a guy (alliteration) so yah, forced to scream. k, whtever.
Edited: I just thought about how really bad i am for other people's birthdays. Or maybe it's something else but i can't mention it here. And... i wanna say something else but i can't say that here either so there really is no point! yarg... and there was this thing with the matches, but i can't say everything or else drakonen can't post.
Edited^2: It's just such a FRUSTRATING day...z sorry, i just finished my personal one and yah... kinda used to using capitals now. -clears throat- excuse me, but i just felt like expressing that at least once in this blog. Apologies again.
Edited^2: It's just such a FRUSTRATING day...z sorry, i just finished my personal one and yah... kinda used to using capitals now. -clears throat- excuse me, but i just felt like expressing that at least once in this blog. Apologies again.
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