One of the many untitled posts

So, let’s get on with a few updates.

Coffeehouse. I distinctively remember the first and what was the only coffeehouse I helped out (performance-wise) in was very traumatizing. I was close to having a nervous breakdown. My heart was beating mad fast before I had to go on. I even had to stay outside and stretch. Very unpleasant. However, once I got up there, I did ok. I was satisfied with what happened on stage and I had a sense of peace.
This coffeehouse was the opposite of that. I felt nervous… but it was the kind of nervousness that I always have before playing in front of a crowd of people. I wasn’t as nervous beforehand this time because I knew most of the people watching whereas last year it was the beginning of first year when I didn’t really know anyone. However, whether it was because the song was sung very low during the verses or I just got really nervous or the combination of them both, my voice started shaking and I couldn’t project my voice (and even when I do, it’s still pretty soft). To this day, I’m still playing that moment over in my head and beating myself up for it. How could I mess up like that? Many debates are currently going on in my head… even though I should just let it go because it has already passed. Also thankful for the friends there that just encouraged me when I was putting myself down after.

The skit was a bit more fun to do. After putting myself down the first act, my thought was that nothing that I was about to do would be worse than what had just happened. It went fairly smooth. Maybe one minor timing glitch but it wasn’t noticeable.

Pretty much finished Fable… I could do a bit more, but I should actually really study. I haven’t really taken my studies that seriously. I have however, been reading a lot. Except it’s not for school. Maybe i’ll post something about it when I’m more bored than I am now. Got up to date with the 8th season of scrubs that I thought would never exist coz I thought the 7th season was the last. The 8th season is actually pretty funny. Or at least more so than the more recent seasons. Also watching the 8th season of friends. I forgot where I left off a few years ago after the…. incident….. dot dot dot.

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spilled a bit of sauce on my bed sheets and now i have to wash them all! (with my house mate’s laundry detergent coz mine ran out. Was suppose to buy detergent today but I couldn’t decide which one was the best. Bad decision skills).